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Wedding Anxiety »» Jay Halstead

My anxiety is high as the time inches closer to having to walk down the aisle. It's finally the big day that Jay and I are getting married. We've been waiting for this for what feels like forever. I'm beyond happy to spend the rest of my life with him. But that doesn't make this any less nerve racking. While I'm here in my room getting ready, he's off in his doing the exact same thing.

My mom and sister are both helping me with hair and makeup. But they won't let me see myself in the mirror until they're done. It makes me excited to finally see the results. I woke up at 7 this morning and had breakfast with my parents. Now it's 2pm and we've spent the morning making sure things were ready like the band, the caterer, etc. just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, a pain formed in my chest.

It became harder for me to breathe as my chest tightened. My hands were sweating profusely at this point. It dawned on me that I'm having a panic attack. My mom and sister tried to calm me down but they couldn't. That's when my sister had left the room for about five minutes. When she returns, Jay is behind her.

I watch as her and my mom exit the room to give us a moment alone. He rushes to my side, resting his hand on my back while the other holds my hand gently. "It's okay," he assures me. "Take deep breaths, just like me."

I do as he told me, taking deep breaths while also thinking about nothing but positive things. Like how I'm happy to marry the love of my life. Or how I'm grateful to have such an incredible family. When it felt easier to breathe again, he handed me some water, which I took a sip of.

"Thank you. But I really wish you hadn't seen me before the wedding." I smile apologetically.

"I'm glad I did because you look breathtakingly gorgeous." He compliments. It made me smile while admiring how he looks in his suit.

"You look absolutely incredible in that suit. I'm sorry I got so nervous."

He cups my cheek in his hand, staring intently in my eyes. His gaze has always had a big effect on me. "It's normal to feel scared before getting married. I'm scared too but something that helps me is knowing the fact that after today, I'll get to spend the rest of my days loving you."

I smile, while leaning into his touch. "Thank you. I'm so grateful to have you in my life."

He leaves a kiss on my forehead then pulls away completely. "Everything is going to be okay. But if you start to feel nervous again while we're out there, just squeeze my hand. I'll be there." He reassures me. I nod and watch as he exits the room.

Thankfully the entire thing went smoothly. I didn't get as nervous as before. Family and friends were there to celebrate us. My anxiety had completely disappeared by the time the reception came and everyone started eating or dancing, having an incredible time. I definitely chose the right person to spend my life with.

We're surrounded by people who love and support us. Today has been one that I've dreamed about since I was a little girl. Now that it's actually happening, makes it all feel surreal. I definitely married the man I pictured as a kid. Someone who is kind, caring, and selfless in every way possible.

I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with Jay.

This is going to be the last chapter of this book. I enjoyed writing it and am so happy so many people enjoyed it. Thank you for reading my stories 🫶🏻 I really appreciate it.