Our Love Always Finds A Way

"Hey ,no matter how many children we have the worry is always the same"

    *THIS IS A LITTLE SHORT,BUT IT'S BEGINNING OF THE DRAMA THATS ABOUT TO COME*

  It's been a week since Wes was born. It's been an adjustment. They couldn't remember the last time they actually slept. Sally was getting ready to take Wes to his first doctors appointment, Adam wanted to go but Sally insisted he stay with the girls which he wasn't pleased with but respected her decision
  Adam was getting Wes ready for Sally, he had him laying on the bed
"Okay Biscuit, you have a fun outing with Mommy. Daddy will be here waiting to cuddle you and give you kisses when you get back"he said giving him a bunch of kisses
Sally groaned coming in the room "What is with this family giving my son food nicknames"she sounded annoyed "First Eden with marshmallow and now you.. with biscuit"she said
"What it's cute.. just like Wes"he smiled at him
"While I'm gone can you pack the girls suitcases for camp"she asked grabbing the diaper bag
"Sure"he paused "Hey are you okay"he said picking up Wes
Sally gave him a smile and just nodded
"Can I walk you two out"he asked
"Sure"she said walking out of the room
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Sally was in the doctors office.She stood by the table with Wes as the doctor was looking him over
"He is okay right"she asked in a nervous tone
"Yes he is healthy. Why are you concerned about something"she said putting her stethoscope around her neck
"Yes, but it's mostly to do with ... me"she said
The doctor sat down on the stool "What's going on"
"It's been a week...and I'm struggling to produce the milk he needs"she began to cry "I don't know what to do" she picked him up "What am I doing wrong this time"
"Sally" she said softly "First you aren't doing anything wrong okay"
Sally smiled at him "But I was able to with my girls"
"Some women over produce and some under produce each time"she looked at the chart "What have you been using to feed him" she asked
"If I couldn't breastfeed I gave him the formula the hospital gave us. When they gave to us ..I was certain I wouldn't need it"she continued to cry
"It's okay .. look at him he seems to be fine.I'll give some other types of formulas incase. If you want I can give you a list of things to try to help bring your milk in"
Sally nodded "Thanks..I sound like a first time mom.. with the worries I have"
"Hey ,no matter how many children we have the worry is always the same" she reassured her as she touched her knee
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Adam had all the suitcases lined up on the couch
"So Mommy set aside the clothes to pack we just need to put it in these" he told them "Your bunk leader will take care of the laundry"he informed them as he was packing
"Can Bentley come"Eden asked as she sat on the floor with him
"No Bug,Bentley has to stay with me and Mommy"he said. He looked at Haddie "Hey Haddie, can you go see if Mommy has your swimsuits in your dresser I don't see them here"he asked looking around
"Sure Daddy"she ran up
"Daddy what if I don't like camp" Eden asked
Adam stopped what he was doing and turned to her "Come here"he sat on the chair
Eden came over and he pulled her on his lap " Mommy and I wouldn't have signed you up if we didn't think you'd like it."he hugged her "And Mazie and Haddie are going too so you won't be alone"he smiled "I just know you are going to have so much fun .."he added
Eden leaned into him, he could sense she's a little nervous
"I'll tell you what if you don't like it, Daddy will be there the  next day to get you okay.. I promise"he kissed her head
Eden hugged him
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Sally came home carrying Wes's car seat and a couple of grocery bags
"Adam" she called out
Adam was coming down the stairs "Babe, why are you carrying everything I could have gotten the bags" he said meeting her and grabbing the bags
"No" she snapped at him."Take Wes I got it"she said handing him the car seat
Adam was taken back to why she didn't just set him down "What did you buy.. is it a surprise" he said giddy
"Nothing fun.. just some things. I'll be back" she headed upstairs
Adam bent down and looked at Wes who was sleeping "What is Mommy up too" he said getting him out "Come on Biscuit let's go hang out" he said giving him a bunch kisses
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Upstairs Sally was in Wes's room. She pulled out the cans of formula and a bottle warmer she bought. She hid them in the closet.Since Wes is in their room most the time she'd figure Adam wouldn't find these
"Hopefully I won't even need them for long" she said to her self as she ate a lactation cookie the doctor recommended
"Sally"she heard Adam call to her "Elena is here"he said
"Coming" she responded
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Sally found Elena in the living room holding Wes. She heard Adam in the kitchen
"Hey Elena, what brings you by" she said
"Well with the girls leaving for camp I thought I'd bring them some things to take with them" she said gesturing to the bags by the suitcases "And I thought I'd also come check on you" she smiled
"Why me .. why I'm fine" Sally got defensive
Adam was puzzled when he heard her, He and Elena gave each looks as he set down the tray of ice teas
"I meant check since it's been a week. I wanted to see how you all were" she said softly
Sally relaxed a little "Oh ya I'm sorry. We are adjusting" she gave a quick smile"I just came back from his first doctors appointment"she said sitting down
"Oh ya how that go"he asked sitting on the arm rest next to her
"G.. good, he is still our chubby boy" she said
Wes began to fuss in Elena's arms
"Oh it looks like someone is hungry"she said playing with his hand
Sally jumped up and quickly grabbed him "I'll be back"she said leaving
Adam looked back watching her, Elena a little concerned
"Hey is she okay" she asked
"Ya"he looked back at her "Why would you ask"
"Something just seems off with her that's all" she said
"Of course it is, she just had baby along with taking care of the girls" he said
"Ya I guess you're right"she said taking a sip of her tea while eyeing the stairs
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Sally was in Wes's room, she had him in the crib while she was warming up his bottle
"I know you aren't used to this room, but this is your room"she looked at him as he cried "Wes, Daddy can't know"she put her finger to her lips
She came over and pick him up, bouncing him as she went the rocking chair.
She began to feed him, he calmed down instantly
"I don't want him to know...that"she looked away to wipe her tears "I failed you"
Sally looked out the window listening to Wes eat as she could feel her heart break because she couldn't feed him like she did the with girls
"I'm so sorry Wes" she whispered
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Later on at they were eating all together as a family which they haven't done since he before Wes. Adam was holding Wes so Sally could eat
"So when do we leave for camp"Haddie asked
"Well let's see"Adam started "Your last day of school is Tuesday and you leave that Friday"he said
"Will I be back for my birthday"Eden asked all worried
"Yes"he smiled "Your birthday is in August and you come back at the end of July" he told her
"Good because I can't wait for my day with you and Mama"Eden said smiling at Sally, who was staring at her plate
Adam looked over and saw Sally not even paying attention she was just moving her food around her plate
"Sal"he rubbed her thigh, which pulled her out of her head "You okay"
Sally looked at them "Um ya,are you good with him. I need to go pump" she said getting up from the table
"Daddy is Mommy okay"Haddie asked
"Yes Bean.. she's just taking care of a new baby" he said smiling down at Wes "It's been five years since we had a newborn.. it's a big adjustment" he told her
They all looked him
"I bet you once you all get back Mommy will back to herself " he said looking back
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Sally was locked in the bathroom sitting on the floor. She didn't lie she was pumping or at least trying too
Adam came in to put Wes down when he noticed Bentley laying by the bathroom door. This concerned him, after setting Wes down he walked over to the door
Adam lightly knocked "Sal, you okay" he said
Sally was startled "What" she hollered
"Are you okay in there"he asked again
"Ya, did you need something"she asked quickly as she put away her things
"No, I was putting Biscuit to bed. He is probably asleep until his 3am feeding" he told her
Sally opened the door, Bentley moved aside for her
Adam looked over at her "Everything okay" he asked softly
"Yes why do you keep asking"she said pulling her robe tightly
He came over and looked at her "If I couldn't see it in your eyes.. our dog gave it away"he told her
"Bentley why" she was confused by that
"When I came in he was laying by door.. you first baby boy misses you"he chuckled
"He probably picked up how tired I am"she played it off "You I didn't get a nap today"
"Well" he wrapped his arms around her "So now that I put my son to bed .. let me put my other baby to bed" he said
Sally laughed "Adam I can't the girls" she tried to pull out of his hold
"I got it covered tonight, I'll have a Daddy daughters night. While you get the rest you deserve"he said walking her over to the bed
Adam covered her up and bent down stroking her hair
"You are so good to me.. I don't deserve
it" she softly said
"Yes you do and so much more" he kissed her forehead "I love you"
"I love you too. Tell the girls I love them" she said
"You got it"he stood up "Now Benny, you stay with Mommy and Wes and I'll cover the girls" he said petting him "Team work" he laughed
Bentley jumped up on the bed obeying the order and resting on Sally
Adam glanced at Wes before leaving closing the door
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Sally laid there staring at Wes while petting Bentley
"Oh Benny"she sighed "I don't what's happening to me" she said