Heartless (Random Updates)

Chapter 75

Jennifer's POV

I jolt awake and look around the room in a panic. I'm not back in the cold room and I'm not in the hospital either. I'm in my bedroom back at the mansion. Trying to catch my breath, I notice that I'm alone. I try to point out things that will help settle my mind. I'm in my own room. That's right, I have my own room. I'm not back there in the bad place. I'm okay and everything is okay. I glance at the clock and see that it's 2:13 in the morning. I take another deep breath and slowly let it out before doing it once more. Now that my heart isn't racing as much, I look around the room again. Oh, I wasn't alone. Nathan is asleep in the chair facing my bed. I slowly get out of bed and stand. I stay there for a few minutes as I steady my balance.

It's been about a week since Sean said it was safe for me to come back to the house and that I was doing better healing. I still had nightmares but it wasn't as bad as when I was in the hospital. It shocked me that they moved Maymee and the boys into the guest house and Victor even gave her his card so she could decorate the house how she wanted. He chuckled and told her she didn't even come close to making a dent in it when she gave the card back. She told him not to test her which caused him to chuckle and say that maybe if her and Gabe got together he might consider worrying which caused Maymee to burst out laughing.

I snap out of my thoughts and look at Nathan. He's still sleeping in the chair. I briefly worry about sleeping like that hurting his neck and shoulders but figure if he was uncomfortable then he would move. I take a step and look back, he is still asleep. I think about waking him and having him move to the bed but I don't want to be in here and I don't feel like dealing with a million questions right now. I think about where I really want to be and decide to just go there and try not to overthink it. I quietly leave the room and slowly walk down the hallway, using the wall to help keep me steady. I manage to get to my destination and take a deep breath, one to help push through the pain and two to try and calm my racing nerves.

I twist the doorknob and push the door open, it remains silent as it swings opens. The TV is playing some episode of Expedition Unknown as I look into the room. I let out a soft sigh as I slowly walk into the room. I grip the bedpost as I look at the two men sleeping. I don't want to wake them. I know they said to wake them if I ever need anything but it kinda feels like a trap and I know how grumpy they can be when they are woken up and I really don't want them mad at me.

I slowly shuffle to the bathroom and shut the door before turning on the light so as not to wake them. I wash my hands when I'm done and turn the light back off before opening the door, hoping the TV covers the noises I was making. I shuffle back to the bed and carefully climb up on the foot of the bed where there's some empty space. I curl up and inhale their scents, calming my nerves. I feel a lot better now, yeah this is where I needed to be. My mind quiets as my muscles start to relax and I feel my eyes drop close. I don't try and fight it this time and feel myself drift into that space between sleep and wake.

The scent of leather and car oil surrounds me, "What are you doing down there, Babygirl?" a gruff deep voice pierces through my sleepy haze.

"Nightmare,"I think I murmur as I wrap my arms around his neck, making his scent stronger as my body is being moved. "Hurt."

"Stay right there with Daddy and I'll get your medicine," he says before I feel a kiss on my forehead and his scent is replaced with the smell of the ocean. I hum as I am moved closer to the ocean. I feel like I'm being wrapped in a hug and everything feels right as I fall back asleep. I wake briefly as the bed moves beneath me and I hear a chuckle before the smell of leather and car oil mixes with the ocean and I let out a happy sigh as I fall back into the sweet abyss of sleep.