In Omnia Paratus (AU) - Book 2

Friends?

"Ugh!" I screamed laying awake on the Sunday morning, dressed in shorts and a small top. I slammed my hand either side of me in frustration.

"You alright?" A voice came from the end of my bed from where the TV and I literally jumped out of my skin.

"Shit don't do that." I sat up grabbing the bed scared out of my shit.

"So you bail on dinner and now you wake up like this?" Lily said frowning at me.

"How long have you been sat there?" I groaned rubbing my forehead and getting out of bed.

"Not long." She hummed. I got out of bed, and went to the toilet. "Looks like you demolished the mini bar last night." She said flicking her fingers over the empty bottles on the shelf.

I just sighed and took some tablets quickly swallowing some water and then turned back to her. "And I guess lover boy didn't turn up last night?"

"Who cares." I mumbled stumbling a little back into the room holding my head.

"What happened? You realise when you disappear like that it ruins everyone else's night and all they do is worry about you." Lily complained.

I sat on the edge of the bed and looked down at my feet. "I don't mean to do that." I said quietly. "It's just... I see that girl with him and I don't like it."

"I assume we're talking about Richard here?" She laughed sitting beside me.

"I think I'll spend the day alone." I hummed not wanting to answer her.

"I think you should." She raised her eyebrows at me. I stared at her wondering why she was being so harsh. "You're pining after Richard and it isn't fair."

"I am not pining after Richard." I moaned laying back on the bed. "Look ill go down today and tell everyone I'm leaving early, if I'm really ruining the weekend it's best you have at least today and tomorrow to have fun."

"You don't need to leave." She laughed. I stood up and walked over to my bag.

"I have money if that what you're worried about." I chucked my purse at her.

"No Jenna, God. We don't want your money. Don't you understand?" She was almost screaming at me in frustration. I don't know what her problem was.

"You can't buy yourself out of this. You can't mope and sob and expect everyone to be okay! I hate to say it but you're not our friend anymore." Lily shouted suddenly standing up.

"Wh-what?" I frowned at her. I had no idea what she meant but I suddenly felt like I couldn't breath, like some had punched me in the stomach.

"Friends don't act this way. We don't talk anymore! When was the last time we sat down and had a meaningful conversation? You hum at me when I ask you a question, you walk off when you feel like it without telling anyone, you get dangerously drunk on your own, you fuck random 20 year old guys and you kiss my boyfriend!" Lily screamed at me.

"I-I don't--" I croaked out feeling suddenly feeling very abandoned.

"Yeah I know everything, Matt felt guilty and told me you two kissed." Lily snapped horribly.

"You don't underst--"

"I know what you're going through." Lily grumbled impatiently.

"There was no need to invite Richard to this weekend we would have been fine without him here." I lectured her.

"No we wouldn't! Don't blame me. Even if it was just us, you're sat at the table but you're never really there, we go swimming and you're not there, we do anything and it's like you're not with us." Lily complained.