In Omnia Paratus (AU) - Book 2

Fresh air

"I need to talk to you." Lily grabbed a fistful of Richards shirt as he answered the door and pulled him away from Molly and out into the quad where they could talk more privately.

"Apart from the assault, what am I doing here?" Richard moaned standing lazily opposite Lily.

"You hurt my best friend." She demanded.

"We went over this--"

"No you didn't, because my best friend is so worried about not being able to talk to you that she had some sort of panic attack, meltdown, breakdown thing going on just now." Lily yelled at him.

"How--"

"No, she's in tears, crying about you!" She pokes his chest.

"Look, I know it's rough but if you knew the whole situation I'm sure you'd agree." Richard smiled down at her.

"What that Molly's pregnant?" She scowled at him. He looked really surprised to find she knew. "Keep it in your fucking pants, it's bad enough you ruined Jenna's life let alone this other girl."

"Jenna told you?"

"No, I'm just not dumb." Lily smirked. "How could you do this? This is Jenna we're talking about the love of your life, the one and only. You can't stop Maisie being a part of your life by cutting out her mother, she's always going to be with you because she's your daughter!" Lily shouted at him.

"Why are you here?" He said quietly and frowning.

"To get you to buck up your ideas." Lily hit his chest. "Now, do you know Molly is pregnant for sure?" She asked finally having his attention.

"No, she's not taken the test yet." Richard choked feeling very stupid all of a sudden.

"Well bloody get her to take one." Lily screamed at Richard, this guy that was so unbelievably stupid for doing this to her best friend. Jenna was paying for something that wasn't her business and that wasn't her fault.

Richard sulked back to dorm while Lily walked away to find Matt and get Jenna talking.

- - - - -

"Why did you do that?" I said completely dazed as I stared at Lily. I was sat up in bed and she was sat on the edge telling me what she had done.

"He was an idiot. He shouldn't have involved you in this at all. This is his fault Jen." Lily smiled at me holding my hand suddenly.

"No it isn't, he deserves to move on. I don't see why so fast but it was going to happen eventually even if it wasn't for another 10 years he'd still have a kid that wasn't mine, and he'd still want to forget Maisie." I explained letting go of Lily's hand pulling my knees up to my chest.

"Even so, he shouldn't of involved you. This wasn't your concern you would have found out like everyone else and not have been so in this as you are now." She comforted me.

"He was scared." I mumbled.

"So were you when you got pregnant and you hid it for 2 weeks before even telling me!" Lily complained. "Look Jen stop pitying yourself." She rubbed my arm.

I stood up out of bed even though it must have been about midnight as the eagle came round before my massive breakdown so it was at least midnight now. I decided I needed a walk, some fresh air, it was so stuffy in dorm, I felt claustrophobic.

"Jen where are you going?"

"Fresh air, want some?" I asked placing my leather jacket on over my clothes and walking out of my room where Lily followed me.

"It's nearly 1am you'd be caught." She sighed.

"Not if I'm quiet." I winked at her quickly opening the door and leaving holding my keys in one hand and my phone in the other.

- - - - -

It was a stupid idea of me to think that the weather would be a walk in a park, it was raining and not just spitting, it was pouring down flooding the corner of the quad that always got a gigantic puddle in it. Why I thought we'd have a dry night in England - I don't know.

I went out when it calmed down a bit and it was just lightly spitting, I sat under a tree where it was pretty dry most of the time but I felt my hair getting wetter and wetter as I sat there.

I felt a bit stupid just sitting there under this tree in the pouring rain. I was moping, feeling sorry for myself and blaming myself for everything that had happen. Everything with Molly and everything with Maisie-- it all felt like my fault.

"You're getting wet." Molly appeared at the door holding an umbrella in her hand.

"I never would of have guessed." I shouted over the rain as it came down harder.

"Here." She said walking over and sitting beside me leaning against the damp tree trunk and pulling her legs up to her chest copying my exact position. "I'm sorry." She uttered.

"You're sorry?" I asked widening my eyes.

"This must be real hard for you. Richard having the possibility of having another kid." Molly mumbled towards the end of her sentence.

"It's ok." I shrugged.

"I'm sorry."

"There's nothing you can do." I puffed a breath of air out as I stared out at the rain as if came down all of a sudden like hailstones, the water bouncing off the pavement and slowly we both went from having straight hair to sopping, wet curls.

"Jenna I know he wishes Maisie was still alive. Don't think he doesn't think that." She said standing up. "Here.." She opened the umbrella up and tucked it behind my back so it stayed above me on its own accord.

Slowly I watched Molly walk back towards her dorm, as she's obviously just come from Richards place. They were probably making plans, like we had when Maisie was born.

I pulled at my sleeves to cover my ice block hands and actually felt warm for a little while letting me fall asleep for about an hour.

It must have been 2:30am when I woke, freezing cold, sniffling and my hands frozen still.

I felt the umbrella had slipped away and I was soaking wet. I stood up and stared at my bright red hands trying to move them but they wouldn't go so I got back inside hoping the warmth would make a difference.

I placed them under the cold tap and it warmed them up, I fell into bed at 3am so happy to finally get back to sleep and live in my dream world, which was so much better than reality at the moment.