In Omnia Paratus (AU) - Book 2

4 Months

Richard was bothered by what Lily had said to him. It worries him how weird Jenna has got since they knew each other so well. He wished that he was still close enough to her to just pop round and help her out when she was feeling low, but no instead she goes and kisses strangers and sleeps with them.

Maybe it was about time he did something about it. Go and see her and talk to her. He was still with Molly so god knows what he was doing but he was trying.

He felt like an idiot when he opened her door. Luckily he hadn't swung it open and pissed her off but he saw something way worse. Watching Jesse laying on top of her making out and she was definitely moaning. He stepped outside the room and waited round the corner until he heard them discussing it and he got up and left.

Richard wasn't sure what to do now but he did know he was very angry. He had to do something.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Richard wandered into dorm and I felt sick to my stomach straight away. He'd seen it hadn't he? Fuck now I was in trouble.

"What do you uh...mean?" I asked nervously sorting out the cushions on the sofa.

"I mean that you're being a total slut." He shouted at me.

"I don't--"

"Don't play innocent with me. I saw you basically fucking him. What do you even see in a guy like Jesse? God, Jenna please!" He continued to shout and I really hated it.

"I don't know... I don't know. He's something I can't have and--"

"You're a control freak that has to have it." Richard screamed.

"Hey! okay? What's you're problem? Last time I check I was nothing to you! We weren't even friends because you can't control yourself. We haven't spoken in 4 months because of you and suddenly you're strolling into my dorm and seeing the worst thing I've done in my life?" I screamed back at him.

"I am only here because Lily saw you making out with Jesse at a club. I thought I'd come over and check you were okay! But oh you're fine I can see." Richard shouted.

"So you're not even here for me? You're here... For Lily?" I mumbled. Wow he really didn't care about me anymore.

"Stop making this about you. You think I don't want to come over here and talk you all the time, whenever I feel bad or need to vent? Because I do. You're like my best friend and you ruined things." Richard started shouting but gradually came back to his normal voice.

"I ruined things?"

"If we could have just proved that there was nothing between us when you first met Molly we would have been fine. She wouldn't have such a problem with me coming to see you occasionally." Richard said.

"You're kidding me. This is because Molly doesn't want you meeting me? Why we haven't spoken in 4 months?" I saw quietly.

"Partly." He snapped. 

"As if... I've been telling Lily all this time that nothing is wrong with that girl, that every suspicion she's had was bullshit because I thought she liked me! I knew there was something up with her." I grunted.

"She's thinks it's weird that we're so close." Richard shrugged.

"We were close. Once. Because we had a kid like 9 months ago, but that was ages ago. She needs to get over it." I moaned.

"Look stop insulting my girlfriend. I just came here to check on you and warn you that Lily knows you kissed Jesse but that doesn't seem to stop you, so uh I'll see you later." He shouted at me as I turned my back on him and he stepped outside the room slamming the door.

"Richard wait." I shouted turning back to the door and he walked back I'm before the door hadn't quite shut.

"What?" He screamed walking back towards me. I didn't say anything. I just leant up and wrapped my hand around his neck and kissed him. He soon played along and his hands came to my hips holding me firmly against him. God had I missed kissing him.

We didn't stop, no one pushed away or felt guilty or bad about this. It felt right, I continued to kiss him for as long as I possibly could, as I knew when I pulled away someone would have to talk and it would awkward.

"Jen." He whispered as our foreheads rested against each other. I didn't say anything, just kept on kissing him. "I should go." He whispered again in my ear as we broke the kiss again.

"Right yeah." I said as my voice cracked from a whisper back to my normal voice.

"I'll call you." He shrugged before making a hasty exit and I felt like shit straight away.

- - - - -

God knows what I'd done now, but that had certainly proven that I have no feelings for Jesse at all. Lily was right when she said I still loved Richard. I did, I really did.

But he has a girlfriend and I have a problem. I've already kissed Jesse while he's with Lily and I kissed Richard when I was going out with Matt and now I've kissed Richard again whilst he's with Molly.

Wow now she's going to hate me.

That not the important thing. I've got to lay out the rules, I've got to go to Richard and apologise, no shouting or crying just I'm sorry. Then apologise to Molly and Lily and Jesse. Well the list goes on.

I got up early the next day and caught Richard as he walked out of his dorm, too afraid to knock in case Molly was there.