"Where the hell is she then? Drunk again?" Richard asked with Matt behind him because Lily couldn't come in the bar so stayed at home, she was tired too."I think she just went to the toilet with Alex, calm down." Grace giggled.
"With Alex?" He moaned as he ran off towards the girl's toilets and pushed the door open quickly.
After trying several times to get him off me by shouting at him I started to push Alex off before anything else happened and so I pushed him really hard into the wall and opened the cubicle door.
Alex came clawing at me to try and stop me running away but I just pushed him away more. It got to the point where he pulled me so hard I ended up on the floor just as the toilet door flung open. Richard...
Alex tried to pull at me, swearing at me to stand up but I wouldn't.
He just stood there. Richard literally didn't move, he just stood there and stared while Alex grabbed my wrists and my arms, swearing at me to shut the fuck up.
I tried to look at Richard to see why he wasn't helping. I finally made eye contact with him and he jumped as if he'd just been woken up or something and then started to yell at Alex.
"Get the fuck off of her." Richard yelled across the room. He jumped back swearing at Richard. But Richard grabbed him by his collar and pushed him to the wall spitting in his face. "You come anywhere near her again. You're history."
So Alex was released from the tight grip and then sulked out of the room like the drunk idiot he was. In the meantime I helped myself up from the floor and dusted off my dress where it got dirty.
"You okay?" He asked in a deep rough voice.
"Mmm hm." I nodded quickly. I couldn't even find the words to say how scared I was just then. "Thank you." I whispered as that's all I could think of.
"Did he touch you?"
I didn't nod and I didn't shake my head. I just stood there like an idiot. He looked me up at down. "Did you give permission?" He asked again.
Again I didn't move, I didn't say yes or no. Because technically I didn't stop him until it got a bit more serious. I let him kiss me... and other stuff.
"Did you have sex?" Richard sighed all impatient for getting no answers to his previous questions.
"God no!" I squealed suddenly.
"Let's get you home." He said kindly and took my hand gently guiding me out of the pub and to his car where Matt was there waiting in the front seat.
- - - - -
"Who will you go and see? Do I have to arrange Kate to come and make appointments with you here? Or can we get a different therapist or doctor... or prescription? I don't know." Lily said standing but holding onto the table as we all sat around it at god knows what time in the morning.
Matt and Richard weren't impressed. They had just told Lily everything about the pub and she was just as pissed off.
I didn't speak again, thinking that it might land me some good at some point. "Well, we have to do something." She repeated. "I don't understand, you were doing so well what tipped you over!"
"I hate to say it lil--" Matt began.
"You! It's you okay!" I yelled suddenly pointing at Lily. "I caused the accident and I put you in a wheelchair!"
"Jenna it's not--"
"--My fault I know." I scoffed over her. "Oh and I just wanted to ask you..." I pointed at Richard harshly. "...why did you pause? Why did you wait?" I asked curiously.
"When?" Matt asked.
"You saw he was hurting me and attacking me but you just stood in the middle of the room. Frozen. What's up with that? Who even does that?" I yelled.
"You watched while she got hurt?" Lily frowned. Richard nodded gently. "Maybe you need therapy more than her."
"I was shocked. I didn't know what I was looking at. I couldn't react. I started to think what has my bloody girlfriend done this time!" Richard moaned.
"Anyway... back to my point. Who will you go and see? Shall I call Kate?" Lily asked nastily. I nodded slowly. I guess if I had to talk to someone at least it was someone I already knew.
"Finally something from her." Richard rolled his eyes. "I've got class in 4 hours, I'm going home I'll be back in the morning." He got up and left straight away.
He probably was feeling awkward anyway especially when I called him out for staring at me while a grown man attacked me and hurt me.
- - - - -
"Hey Kate." I said walking into this room that we had set up for her to come and talk to me.
"Jenna," she smiled. "I thought everything was resolved and now I'm hearing from Lily you're still blaming yourself after everything that went on."
"Wow we are just jumping right on in there." I sighed. "Maybe I should go I just get yelled at whenever I speak recently anyway." I rolled my eyes.
"Jenna wait. Come on sit down." She smiled. I sat and raised my eyebrows annoyingly.
"I don't know why I'm here." I said slowly.
"Here in this room? Or are we talking deeper?" Kate asked wearily.
"Both." I sighed. "Why am I attending a university and living in a dorm with the same girl I put in a wheelchair. Nobody does that." I moaned.
"They might if they were best friends." Kate added.
"Not anymore, everyone hates me."
"You're kidding they're calling up me dead worried about you. They thought you might be suicidal..." Kate frowned. "Don't give me that looked you and I both know what happen just 6 months or so ago. How are the scars?"
"Hey that's not fair." I huffed.
"So no more self harm you've resorted to drinking instead." Kate asked.
"Yeah I guess." I sighed.
"Look I want you to talk to a Doctor. I phoned you're NHS therapist that you went to a few times. I also phoned Victoria and they think you need to be seen medically. Victoria even said she'd treat you." Kate explained.
"Well...""
"Can I take you there now? To see Victoria I checked with her and she said she's free from 3pm. Maybe we could just stop by." Kate asked.
"Oh...Kay." I said slowly not really sure what to make of this.
"I'll drive come on."
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In Omnia Paratus (AU) - Book 2
FanfictionJenna's been through the rough. She isn't coping very well these days and friends and family are struggling to get through to her. "I did this wrong. I did this all wrong. Maisie, Richard, everything...How could I have let this happen?" "How did I...