Consequences

Chapter 40

Chapter 40

Someone's Point of View:

Ugh. I hate seeing her cry. It stings. It brings pain to my heart.

Kahapon, bumisita sila sa sementeryo. Para bisitahin siya. Kitang kita ko kung pano siya umiyak. Masakit. Masakit na makita siyang umiyak.

Wala man lang akong magawa para sa kanya.

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Cassandra's Point of View:
Nagising ako ng dahil sa naririnig kong mga patak ng ulan na tumatama sa pinto na papuntang terrace. Gawa kasi sa glass.

Woah. Himala. Summer tapos umuulan.

7:54 am na.

Nagpalit ako ng damit at pumunta sa music room. Sinaksak ang plug ng keyboard at tumugtog.

I drove by all the places
We used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss
How it felt, the way you tasted

And even though my friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely
Even though he's right beside you
When he says those words that hurt you
Do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes, I start to wonder was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago tugtugin ang chorus.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make up running down your face
All the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about these stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all.

Ang kanta na ito ang pinaka nagdedescribe kung ano ang mood ko. Kasi yung lyrics niya, damang dama ko.

Kasi diba umalis siya? At hindi na kailanman babalik.

The pictures that you sent me, they're still living in my phone
I admit I'd like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep askin' why I'm not around

It hurts to know your happy, yeah it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened was it just a lie?
If what we had was real how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all.

Tama. Kelan ba ako naging 'fine' diba? Never naman eh.

Masakait kapag naiisip kong masaya na siya. Na nakamove on na sa siya. Masakit kapag naririnig ko yung pangalan niya. Sobrang sakit. Lalo na kapag alam mong hindi mo na siya makikita ulit.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make up running down your face
All the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about these stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
Abd the memories I never can escape

If the day I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of these was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

Pinunasan ko ang nagbabadyang luha sa mata ko. Bakit ba simula nung namatay siya, naging sobrang emotional na ako.

Nawala na yung demonyong ako. Nakakangiti na ako, nakakatawa, pero yun nga. Naging emotional.

Siguro kasi yung kalahati ng puso ko eh namatay na.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make up running down your face
All the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about these stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

At pagkaplay ko ng last chord dito sa keyboard, nakarinig ako ng mga kalabog galing sa labas.

"Kuya, huwag kayong magfeeling ninja. Pumasok na lang kayo." Sabi ko sabay irap kahit hindi nila ako nakikita.

Alam ko namang sila yan eh. Mga feeling ninja. As if namang hindi ko mahahalatang nandyan sila.

"Sabi sayo, Carl eh! Ang ingay mo kasi!" Paninisi ni Kuya Carlos.

"Manisi pa. Lahat kayo halata." Sabi ko sabay irap.

Natawa na lang si Kuya Chris sabay tingin sa phone niya.

"Cass kilala mo to? Nicole Vargas. In-add ako sa facebook. Mutual ka naman." Tanong niya sa akin.

Napairap na lang ako sa katangahan ng kuya ko. Kung makaasta parang hindi siya ang Batch Salutatorian nila. Nakakaloka.

Kawawa naman bestfriend ko, hindi kilala ng crush niya. Hahahaha. "Si Nicky. Nicole na bestfriend ko." Sabi ko.

"Ay hala weh? Siya to? Hindi ko nakilala. Ang ganda niya dito oh." Sabi niya sabay turo sa phone niya.

Napatawa na lang ako. "Pfft. Okay. Sabi mo eh." Sabi ko.

"Tara na at mag-aalmusal na. Pupunta daw tayo ng Star City." Sabi ni Kuya Carl.

"Hala weh?!" Tili ko.

"Aish! Nag-iba na ugali mo! Ang ingay mo na!" sabi ni Kuya Carlos sabay takip sa tenga niya.

"Wushuu, pakyu porket naging kayo lang ni Ate Mikay eh." Sabi ko habang bumababa kami ng hagdan.

Hindi na nila ako pinansin. Nakakarindi daw kasi ako.

Naramdaman kong nagvibrate ang phone ko.

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