Monochrome Rainbow [✔️Completed]

LIFE

All my life 

I thought I was afraid 

of dying 

jumping at shadows 

playing out doomsday scenarios 

fearing for the worst 

dreading the nothingness to come 

watching the clocks counting down 

whispering to the dark for answers 

holding my breath during the silence 

mistaking every instance of stillness 

for the end of the line 

a big waste of time 

not having accomplished anything 

It wasn't death that terrified me 

it was the absence of living 

I feared the way the years slipped past 

like soft sand through my calloused fingers 

how laughter echoed down hallways 

I was too afraid to walk 

birthdays came and went 

and I remained seated 

an observer in my own story 

the world spun on 

making memories without me 

suns set on dreams I never chased and nightmares I never beat 

faces I never touched and hands I never held 

experiences I would never have and titles I would never earn 

friends I would never make and love I would never feel 

I was scared of the life I would never live