Letting Go Is Easier Said Than Done (An Original Story)

Chapter 74

Chapter 74

A week later...

 I've been doing a lot of thinking since my sweet sixteen birthday party last night about Becky. I'm just so glad that she was able to come to my party last week. I know that she's really sick but yet she still bugged her parents enough to convince them to let her come, which melts my heart. I've never had a best friend like her when I was younger. I'm still not used to having someone who's loyal rather than someone who pretends to be my friend but is really out to plan my demise. I really hope she makes it. She's the strongest person I've ever known, but even cancer kick the strongest person's ass. I think that she'll make it, as does Derek and Ted. I'm just holding onto my faith. 

  School sucks without Becky here. I'm grateful for Derek being in all of my classes and Ted being in most of them, but it's not the same. Becky adds a special flare to every school day. Without her presence here, I lack excitement about going to school. Our music teacher misses her like crazy. He asks me all the time about when she's coming back to school and I tell him the truth, which is I don't know. Becky doesn't know either. She's in and out of the hospital all of the time now. Some days her health is decent and others... not so much. Some of her spells are so severe that I'm afraid that with each one brings about a higher chance of her death. I hate being cynical like that, but I'm used to being dying around me. I've lost the only brother of mine that I was ever close with, my uncle, and my favorite neighbors all within the past two years. I experience a lot of loss, I'm just not always as open about it as I should be. 

  I've had nightmares about losing Becky several times in the past two weeks. All of them are so bad that I wake up crying, shouting at the top of my lungs, sweating a lot, or a mixture of all of the above. If I ever lost Becky, I'd lose myself too. Most of my heart would go with her. No Myra, stop it. Get it together. Becky's not leaving you. She's going to kick cancer's ass and bug you for a long time, just like she promised.