Limerence {Joshler} [COMPLETED]

25.nerves

Eventually his mom budged and told Tyler he could go to the performance on friday. She wasn't too excited at first, because she was hesitant of letting him go all by himself, knowing his anxiety would kick in. Telling her repeatedly that he wasn't going alone, but joined Joshua and his friends, she caved and said okay.

He didn't tell her he was still really really anxious about it, scared about what Joshua's friends would think of him. Even tho the man said they were all okay with it, he was pretty sure he would be seen as some intruder.
But Joshua sounded really excited for him to come, and that was enough for Tyler to agree and want to go anyway. He tried to convince himself as he picked his cuticles until he tore the skin open.

He sighed. Oops.

He didn't know what to wear, he never went out like this. He liked to avoid human socializing as much as possible. People would just always judge him and somehow he felt like he annoyed people because he was so shy.
He opened his closet, every door and drawer. What to wear?! Knowing a bit about the band Joshua played in, he decided he didn't have to dress up too fancy, his black skinnyjeans, sneakers and favorite yellow hoodie would probably do.

***

"Hey sweetheart, are you okay?" His mom's head peeked around the sightly opened door of his bedroom. Tyler shrugged.
His mom sat down next to him, arm around his shoulder, pulling him closer.
"What's wrong?" She asked cautiously, gently rubbing his back. Tyler shrugged again, not saying anything because that would probably mean he would start crying.
"It's a lot, isn't it?" She suggested.
He nodded, swallowing a dry lump and trying to fight his eyes from getting teary.
She hugged him a little tighter, swaying him softly. "I know it is", she spoke softly.

"It's all new to you Tyler. It's okay to be nervous and anxious. You've never felt for someone like this before, and the fact that he likes you back is probably overwhelming. And with him being a little older, more extrovert and experienced, it can be a little frightning. It can make your anxiety peak, but remember that will go away okay? It will get better."

Tyler wiped a stray tear from his cheek with the back of his hand, taking a deep breath, and kissed his mom on his cheek. "T-thank you, momma." He did feel a tiny bit better.

"Do you still wanna go? Or shou-." Tyler cut his mom off quickly. "Y-yes i'm g-gonna go. I'll b-be okay." He wasn't sure, but he needed to be.

"Okay. Tell him if you don't like something or if it's too much... And if you feel anxious you can text me. Or call me, but I know you don't like that. Or get Joshua to calm you down, okay?"

Tyler nodded, wishing he didn't need to do that.