Limerence {Joshler} [COMPLETED]

44.insecure too

Tyler couldn't sleep that night. His mind was racing, trying to deal with everything that had happened earlier.

He had no clue what he was feeling, he couldn't make sense of it all.
Was he happy or excited that this had happened? Well, he couldn't deny that he was. That Joshua wanted to do something like that with him was... mindblowing really. But he also felt so scared and insecure and just really really anxious.
Should he have 'returned the favor'? He didn't do anything back.. but he was scared to and didn't know how to? He never did anything like that before... He wanted to though? But maybe he should've just said that? Now Joshua would probably feel used and disappointed.

The boy pulled the duvet over his head and wrapped himself up like a burrito. He sighed. Did he overcomplicate things? Maybe? But probably not.
Joshua must've been feeling so let down, and Tyler was sure he wouldn't really be into him anymore.

The boy gasped when he realized he had forgotten to bring his teddy bear home. The huge teddy bear that Joshua had bought for him. He felt really, extremely ungrateful now and his eyes filled up with tears.
Joshua would definitely think Tyler didn't want the bear anymore.

Tyler quickly wiped the tear running down his cheek away, trying to convince himself to man up and talk to Joshua about it. He couldn't back out of this. He didn't want to let his anxiety win again. Not again. He had to make things right. Joshua was worth it. He needed to go talk to him.

Tomorrow. He would go there and explain himself. He would. He will do it. Right?