Limerence {Joshler} [COMPLETED]

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💕💕Joshua💕💕
Hi cutie, did you notice Doodle sneaking out with you possibly last night? Can't find her xx

Tyler:
Oh no! I didn't see her, but what if I did! She'll be so cold! We gotta find her!

💕💕Joshua💕💕
Don't stress yet, bet she will be back in a bit. Enjoy your day, Brendon and I are leaving to play tonight. See you tomorrow maybe? ❤️

Tyler:
I hope so! And, I hope so :) 💜

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Tyler couldn't help but pout a bit. Joshua had asked if he wanted to join them to where they had to play tonight. But Tyler couldn't, well, honestly was scared to go. He knew Joshua wouldn't lose track of him again, he was sure of that. So a bit to fast he said he couldn't come because he had a friend coming over.

And now, now he regretted saying that with his whole heart. He lied. He lied to Joshua. He just bluntly lied. Anxiety made him lie. And Joshua didn't deserve to be lied to. He would've understood, Tyler realized now. He could've been honest. But he lied and he felt so nauseous he could throw up. Thinking about that, he felt his stomach contract and he jumped off the couch running towards the bathroom. He made it just in time to empty his stomach in the toilet.

His mom ran in only a minute after, not knowing what was going on. "Sweetheart, are you okay? What's wrong?" She crouched down beside him, brushing some hairs off of his forehead. The boy's eyes were red and puffy, from trying not to cry. He just shook his head and threw up again, until there was nothing left. His mom had dampened a cloth and cleaned his face. "Done?" She asked in a quiet, soothing voice. Tyler nodded, his body still shaking.

Back on the couch he cuddled up to his mom, who gently rubbed his back. "I know you're not sick, tell me what's going on sweetheart." He his his face behind his hands. "I l-lied t-to Joshua", his voice muffled by fabric and his hands. "You lied?" His mom questioned. "Hmmm." "About what Tyler?" The boy looked up from his hands. "About n-not c-coming with h-him t-tonight. I-I said I h-had a f-friend coming o-over." His mom frowned. "I-I got s-scared t-that I might h-have another a-anxiety attack s-so I-I s-said that I c-could'nt come."
His mom was trying to start a sentence but Tyler knew what she was going to say so he just said it himself.

"I k-know I could've t-told him I-I was a-anxious and h-he would've u-understood b-but I d-didn't. I f-feel g-guilty for lying and I-I regret not g-going and I-I really w-wanted t-to be t-there." His mom sighed softly. "It's okay to get anxious Tyler, and okay not to go because of that. But it's not nice to lie, you know that. You have to tell him, maybe call him?"

"N-no no no. I-I c-can't c-call I-I'm too sc-." His mom sat up a bit. "I know you're afraid of phonecalls but sometimes things shouldn't be talked about on text, it should be done personally. You can do this now, or you wait till tomorrow and go see him then." Tyler sighed.

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It was 8:38 pm and Tyler knew Joshua was on stage right now. He told his mom he would go to sleep early, just so he could be alone for a while. He really wanted to try to call Joshua, and he attempted at least 5 times today but he just couldn't do it.

Tyler:
Can you please call me after the show? X

After he sent it his stomach churned and contracted, and he sighed. He was so sick of being so anxious the whole time and he crawled under the sheets and curled up into a ball. Why couldn't he just be normal?

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He couldn't sleep but still Tyler's eyes shot open when some song started playing and it took him a couple of seconds to realize it was his phone. 11:58pm, Joshua. He cleared his throat and took a deep breath before pressing the green button.

"H-Hi."
"Tyler!? What's going on? Are you okay?!"
He heard Joshua's voice, full of concern and he realized he must've freaked the man out with asking for him to call. Call! He never wanted to call and Joshua must be thinking there was something bad happening.

"Tyler!?"
"Y-yeah i'm o-okay, d-don't worry. I'm s-so s-sorry! Ohh I d-didn't mean t-to u-upset y-you, i'm s-sorry."

"Baby, baby, hey, it's okay don't be sorry. I was just scared that something was wrong. Are you really okay? Why did you want me to call you?"

"I-I lied t-to y-you Joshua", the boy whispered and it was silent for a couple of seconds.

"What? When?" He could hear the surprise in Joshua's voice.

"W-when I s-said I c-couldn't c-come with you t-tonight. I-I lied Joshua. I-I j-just g-got anxious so f-fast and I s-said I h-had a friend c-coming over b-but I didn't. I w-was just a-anxious and s-scared that I-I would have a-another attack a-and that's why i l-lied. B-but I-I feel s-so bad a-about it and I c-can't sleep b-because I k-know y-you wouldn't l-let that h-happen a-again but I-I just.. I w-wish I was w-with y-you and I-I'm so s-sorry."

Joshu just let him ramble on everything he had to say and waited patiently for Tyler to be done with his all-over-the-place confession.

"Thank you for telling me that, darling. I really appreciate you even facing your fear of phonecalls to tell me that, okay?"

Tyler sighed, relieved with Joshua's reaction, and a bit proud of the praise he just got from the man. He dried the escaped tear that ran over his cheek.

"Don't worry to much about it anymore now, okay? I know anxiety can make you do those things, but your really brave baby. Thank you for telling me."

"O-okay", Tyler whispered, as he layed back down, getting comfortable under the sheets again, phone still pressed to his ear.

"Are you in bed yet?" Joshua asked and Tyler nodded. He added a quick affirmative "Hmm" after realizing Joshua could'nt see him nodd.

"Hm, I wish I was there with you, cutie." The man's voice was soft like melted caramel, and made Tyler's body tingle and all warm and fuzzy. "Try to get some sleep, I'll see you tomorrow alright?"

"O-okay, g-goodnight Joshua."

"Goodnight baby."

Tyler could get used to phonecalls like this. Soon after he fell asleep peacefully, Joshua's caramel voice still echoing in his ears, guiding him into some sweet dreams.