Limerence {Joshler} [COMPLETED]

86.cosy

"What are you thinking of, Ty? Didn't you like the surprise?"
Joshua had his left hand softly combing through Tylers fluffy brown hair, his eyes following his fingers path through the soft strands.
"W-what? Ofcourse I d-did! J-Joshua it was amazing! I c-cant believe I actually s-saw him alive! L-like in real life. I-it was perfect." The boy turned his head so he was leaning his chin atop Joshua's chest, warm fingers slowly caressing the stubble on the older's throat.

"Then what is it?"
Tyler shrugged softly, avoiding Joshua's eyes, instead focussing on playing with the sleeve of Joshua's shirt.
"C'mon, tell me."
Tylers cheeks flushed, and he quickly pulled the covers over his head, then wrapping his arms around Joshua's torso while pressing his face into the man's chest.
He shook when Joshua laughed at whatever Tyler mumbled, completely inaudible. So the older pushed down the sheets and tried to lift the boy's chin.

Tyler seemed to think for a bit, blinking slowly before finally letting his eyes connect with Joshua's. "I, uhm, f-feel guilty?" He questioned it, but Joshua wasn't answering, just frowning in the slightest, obviously waiting for an explanation. "I t-think i'm not a very g-good b-boyfriend.."

Joshua then seriously frowned, as he propped himself up on his elbows, scooting back to sit up a bit more. "What? Why would you say that?"
Tyler sighed softly, shrugging while overthinking his words. "I just feel l-like... y-you do all t-those things f-for me, help me, s-show me things, b-buy me t-things... and I d-don't d-do any of that. Y-you show me you love m-me, and I j-just don't show you a-anything."

"Tyler", Joshua started before pulling the boy up. The older was leaning back against the headboard, now pulling the boy to straddle him. "Look at me." He added when he noticed the younger avoiding to look at him directly.
"Why do you think you're not giving anything?"
"It's t-true, isnt it? I n-never gave you a-anything."
"Yes, you did."
"L-like what then", Tyler nearly huffed.
"You?"
Joshua caught the younger rolling his eyes. "Don't roll your eyes baby, it is true." Joshua's hands slid to the boys cheeks, making sure he was paying attention.
"It might sounds stupid, but you actually gave me you. And that is the biggest thing you could've given Ty."
"B-but..."
"Listen to me sweets, please. Maybe you haven't given me any 'stuff' but honestly I could not care any less."
"But you d-do?"
"Yes, only because I can, and I want to give you everything I have and I want to do things with you, see things, see places, with you."
Tyler's cheeks flushed more.

"Okay, let me put it this way. If I wouldnt have bought you stuff, or took you out, or anything like that... would you still like me?"
"L-love you. Y-yes."
Joshua smiled at his answer, pulling the boy closer briefly and pecking a quick kiss on his lips.
"Then why won't you accept that I love you, even without any gifts or material things or whatever?"
He then pulled the younger against his chest, hearts beating against each other's, Tylers head resting in the crook of the older's neck. Joshua gently pulled up the covers more to keep them warm before wrapping his arms around his boyfriend.
"You may think you haven't given anything, darling, but you did. My god, you do all the time."
"L-like what t-then", the younger whispered, grabbing onto Joshua's frame more tightly.

"You opened up Ty. Look where we are right now. Just realize how far you've come. You give me pieces of your heart every day, baby. Only a few months back you were too scared to even really look at me, and you'd run off to the bathroom."
He heard a small gasp coming from Tyler's lips. "Y-you k-knew!?" He yell-whispered.
Joshua chuckled. "Of course I did baby. It was obvious, and the cutest thing ever. It just made me doubt if i had to go for it, or not. For you."
"Y-you already l-liked me?"
"For a while, yeah. But... I don't know, you were.. are a bit younger than I am, and i thought it would be wrong to, well, actually like you." He chuckled again. "But well, when I started to notice your, uhm, behaviour around me I was like 'fuck it' I gotta go for this boy."
He sighed softly.

"I don't need stuff Ty. Never did. What you do is enough. You're enough. See where you came from... You opened up, face your anxiety all the time, your insecurities, you talk more. You even sang for me. Everything you do all day is proving you love me more than a gift would, baby."