Two Worlds: One Fate [Killua x Reader]

19: Heartbreak

(Y/n)'s P.O.V
"Don't you like me?"

"I don't see you that way. Sorry." He couldn't face me....

And I couldn't see him...

Tears easily and completely flooded my eyes.

I made myself stand, limping to the side.

I knew he'd reject me! But still...

"W-what do you mean? Ah... you said not yet right? ..But do I really have zero chance?? I could wait you know.. Let's take things slow.. Love grows within time." I convinced myself, looking down the ground.

"No." Killua picks his shirt, slinging it on his shoulder, getting up on his feet.

Maybe he's still blaming me for what happened with Alluka...

Or maybe I'm just plain ugly.. My pathetic self knew this would happen in reality.. Why am I so shocked?!

"I'm sorry I sounded desperate for a second there.. even though you've politely apologized for rejecting me.." I was trying to get ahold of myself, but there's no use. I couldn't even smile kindly and casually to make it less awkward and uncomfortable for him.

I'm probably wearing such ugly cry face right now..

I confessed to unload the weight in my heart, to mark our relationship clearly. No matter what's his answer, it's for the better..

Being with him while having these feelings was starting to choke me..

I knew that I must move forward... or else things will get harder..

He didn't bother to utter a word as he silently watched my reaction, completely dumbfounded.

It was obvious. Both of us were wrestling with our personal thoughts, figuring out what to say and do at the moment.

I tightly clutched my fists, enduring this excruciating pain inflicted right into my heart.

I never knew rejection felt like this...

I must've underestimated my love for him for it to backfire like this...

I couldn't bear to let him see my pathetic expression.. So I turned my back on him. "It hurts.. But I still have no regrets.. I'm happy just by meeting you-"

I loved him for fricking years!... Years!

"It shouldn't even hurt you that deep, I mean—"

"You don't just decide someone else's feelings! You can't tell it shouldn't hurt when the person's hurting.."

Again, no follow ups were spoken by him as he quietly stood.

"This is bad... Once I cry, I can't stop..." I mumbled to myself.

"(Y/n)—"

I sobbed yet spoke with a cracking voice, trying to keep the conversation going. "Killua, you should be the last person making me cry... I can't... I-I think I may not recover from this..."