Two Worlds: One Fate [Killua x Reader]

84: Their Way

(Y/n)'s P.O.V
This warmth...

It's so comforting..

It's like I was instinctively longing for this.

I burrowed my head into the soft, familiar heat against my cheek then snuggled closer to the source of gentle warmth.

What a nice scent..

My eyes slowly fluttered open.

"Good morning." Killua's face was an inch to mine. He greeted me in a husky voice as his usual appealing smirk drew on his lips.

"My arm's getting numb. But I didn't wanna wake you up when you're still sleeping soundly." He pecked a tender kiss on my forehead, petting and brushing my hair with his fingers, giving me a pleasant mood.

We slept together?

I mean we didn't make love...

We literally just sleep.

"Still half asleep?" He chuckled, hugging me like I was the perfect fit in his arms.

...

He's shirtless...

My heart pounded abnormally like last night but I immediately brushed it off because reality is still reality.

"Are you trying to make me fall for you again?" I pulled away.

"You know being with me is the best feeling. You're already in-love with Killua Zoldyck. I'm just reviving it back. Don't fight it." He nuzzled on my chest, brushing his soft, snowy hair against my neck.

"It's only the best feeling at first... Loving you back means losing this power and unleashing the tragic consequences once again. We both know that... I don't understand why you kept doing this." I entangled my fingers through his hair. "So stop this nonsense. How many times do you intend to make me repeat it? How do I make it more understandable??"

His arms slid around my waist, enfolding me for a hug. "I'll insist and force myself on you until you give in. I don't care about the consequences. Let the worlds and everyone perish. I can't live without you anymore.."

"Don't say that! You're fine even if Gon, Alluka and your friends went gone?" I pushed him off, sitting up the bed.

"There must be a way to make things fine. I will find one. I know it's been very difficult for you. So for now on, leave it to me... Until I've searched the way, don't leave. That's the only thing I'm asking of you." He sincerely spoke with his whole heart, leaning his head on my shoulder, pressing his palm with mine as he held my hand, caressing his thumb on mine.

"We kept meeting because of fate. That's why we should cut off our ties. I'll make it come true. We're racing against time! The earlier we end it, the better. That's the only way."

"Cut us off completely you say.." He scoffed. "Don't treat me like a fool. You're choosing that without proving its outcome. What will become of us if it's another mistake?? Getting in the boundary of worlds you've been talking about is very risky. If it's like that, it's clearly not the right solution. I care about you. I can't have you taking all the risk yourself."

"Then what do you suggest?! Besides Togashi, I have the most capability of setting everything right. I don't love you and even if I do, I was wishing not to... I don't wanna fall for you again."

"(Y/n), that's called escaping. We met because you're a part of me and I'm a part of you. Don't cut us off. Don't end this bond." He gets off the bed without releasing my hand as he knelt down to face me with his eloquent ocean eyes, gazing through me. "You said we're fated to meet but weren't meant to be together. Why? Because of the perilous odds? I don't believe that. Because I believe myself that I was made for you, existed for you."

"You can't win me with flowery words. Our relationship costs your world and mine. It's not normal.... You're just being plain stubborn if you can't even explain how you'd set everything fine and equal for both sides. I need accurate and logical solutions. Only I, can save our lives right now. Quit daydreaming and be realistic. You're being out of character, and it's my fault." I yanked my hand off his, looking away. "Everything is my fault... it started when I loved an anime character.."

I just woke up then the second round of our wrangle begun again. I think I'll have constant headaches for the following days..

"Damn it!" He jolts up, glowering. "Are you saying that even my feelings are unrealistic?! Am I not real for you?" He grabbed my wrists and made me cup his cheeks. "I'm aware of the facts. But tell me, if I'm just a fictional character, why can you touch me, feel me, talk with me?! Stop saying it's all your fault. It's got something to do with me too! I'm not just a fucking anime character!"

"Killua—"

"It's because I'm special... and you're too. Because out of our fans in your world, you're the only one who got the special tie with me." He brought down my hands. "You said I'm being out of character? (Y/n), you only knew me because of the show... but don't think you know the whole me. You're being too cocky. It's insulting." He walks to the door.

"I didn't mean it that way!" I reflexively flailed my hand over his direction. "But at least I understand a part of you, unlike you.." I pulled back my hand, bringing it to my heart. "It's been one-sided for me through the years. I've been crazy for you... You might be real or not.. it's still the same— Same amount of pain. On second thought, it's much more painful this way. If you really love me, please let me deal it my way. Because I'm not backing off from my plan."

"No. Have it your way, and I'll have it my way also." His hand made contact with the door's handle, pulling it open.

"If explaining things doesn't get through you.. Should I just hurt you? So bad you'll want me gone." I got down my bed, taking small steps towards him.

"Being together hurts..." He muttered.

"But... Being apart hurts.. more." Killua turns back with a somber expression, giving a mirthless smile as he resumed. "The repetition of meeting and parting, in those days, my whole being is torn. (Y/n), what should I believe in?"

....

I sighed heavily and shook my head.

"It doesn't matter if you're happy or not, because what matters the most is yours and everyone's safety and future... That's common sense if you're mature enough." My reply momentarily made him halt as he just stood out my door, releasing the handle, and letting the door slowly shut back itself.

"Love is just a feeling, it comes and goes around, you can always fall for others.. But this fucked up state right now, we got only one chance, Killua." I balled my fists as the door completely closed, dividing us apart.

Fine.. Let's do it our way..

To be continued....