trigger warnings
some of this is related to what happened to my sister.
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Allanah
"You ready to go love" Billie says as she finishes tying her laces.
"Whenever you are." I say walking over to the coat rack and grabbing a coat.
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"Gosh it's freezing out here" Billie says chattering her teeth.
"It's only like that because it's getting dark" I say laughing at her as she plops down on the swing.
"Why did we come here anyways" She questions
"I just really wanted to spend time with you.... i mean yeah we fall asleep together but with your touring and my career we rarely see each other like that" I say fiddling with my thumbs.
"Awwww loveee" Billie coo's.
"Oh shut up!" I say laughing.
"Come one follow me" Billie says getting up and leading me to the jungle gym as she sits down and pats the seat next to her, wanting me to sit down there.
I follow her request and she immediately takes me into her arms and plants kisses over my face.
"It's moments like this that I'll never forget again......i love you Lana. really." She says looking me in my eyes.
"I love" I say as the loud bangs begin as I see the bullets flying towards me and Billie. I flinch as I hear the bullets cling onto something. I over at Billie as she falls back while coughing up her own blood.
After that more bullets ring out. One nicking my arm. And one straying somewhere far.
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I walk into the all black church filled with friends and family of Billie. They wanted me to speak first at the funeral. So I guess that's what I'm doing.
"well. i don't know where to start. so i won't start. instead i will finish. i will finish the legacy that she left. it will live forever. through all of us and the entire world. if billie was here she wouldn't want us mopping and being upset. she would want us to make better out of this situation. learn from it. so please take what you have learned here into the real world. oh and trust me. i refuse to rest until i found out who did this." I looked toward the camera pointing to my face.
"and if you are out there...im coming. bitch."
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I feel like I'm recovering from my grief already. It's been 2 days but I know that this won't be easy. I write for you guys. And I will continue to. Love you all 💞
