indiana
trigger warning .. first time writing since april . it might suck . also suicidal talk
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i sit back tears falling from my face .. my earbuds plugged into my ear . just thinking about her name breaks my heart . i wish i could just talk to her . but she's shutting me out . she doesn't even know what i'm feeling right now .. i wipe my eyes as my salty tears hit my wrists and it starts to sting . i look down and see the familiar slits i made the last couple of days .
i grab my phone and enter my snap looking through the stories and i see billie .. with some whore. i know there hooking up . it's 3am and she's ignoring me not to mention this is the same girl she told me not to worry about. i swipe out of the story trying to forget what i saw.
i get out of bed and slide on my slippers and throw on a sweater and head downstairs.. i open the fridge grab a water and a granola bar . not anything too heavy since this will be the first i've eaten in a day or 2.
i run back to my room and close the door snuggling into the covers . i roll over in the bed and i'm hit with the smell of her . her pillow. she used to stay at my house 24/7 so she eventually brought her own stuff to settle in. i sigh and cuddle it as the tears begin to flood the brims of my eyes ..
fuck it .. i have to text her
i begin rummaging through my room trying to find where i threw my phone ..
i hear it going off so i grab it from behind my curtain ..
i open my messages and text billie .
"take me back...
pt.2 coming .
