Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 7.

PAISLEYS POV:

I wake up in Ethan's arms. At first, I can't remember why I'm laying in bed with Ethan..who's shirtless? I realise I'm wearing Ethan's shirt, but no pants? Then it all comes flooding back to me. I reach to my phone and check to see 15 messages, 13 from Ethan. They were from yesterday when I left.

'Please come back'

'What's wrong?'

'Was it me?'

'I'm so sorry'

'Please talk to me'

'Baby don't ignore me now'

'I'm really worried'

'Please come home'

'I'm worried sick, please please please come back'

'Paisley I'm scared now'

'Please answer. Please'

'Baby please, it's getting dark'

'Are you lost? I'll come find you'

Then I see the last two are from the unknown number.

'I'm pretty sure you're going to hell, because God doesn't like sluts. You need to be cleaned'

'I'm pretty sure Ethan's lying because no one will ever think you're beautiful, you have a face only a mother could love. Where is your mother? Oh right. She's dead. Probably couldn't live with knowing she raised a slut.'

Why can't they leave me alone!? I'm sick of it! I've had enough of all of this, I just want it all to end. Everything. I try to move but I can barely move an inch without hurting. I try to sit up but I can't help but groan in pain.

"Baby, please just stay." Ethan says softly, pulling me gently back into him. His bare skin against my arms is surprisingly soothing.

I guess he was up way later than me, waiting for me to sleep. I lay up against him and can't help but cry. I'm facing away from him and not making any noise, the tears are just falling. My life is so bad, and no one besides Christina knows about it. I want to go home, I want to go back. But I realise that this is my home now, this is the only place I can go.

ETHANS POV:

I can feel her trying to get up, but she groans in pain. I feel so bad that I didn't just keep chasing her last night, that this is somehow my fault and I couldn't feel worse about it. I realise I'm shirtless still, but it's not cold or anything.

"Baby, please just stay." I tell her. I pull her gently into me and she lays her head down on the pillow. I know she's crying, I can feel it too.

"Please stop crying." I say.

No reply.

"Paisley?" I ask, sitting up slowly so I can see her face. Her cheeks are red and wet, her eyes puffy and tired. She just blinks rapidly, trying to blink away her tears. But there's just so many, she can't get rid of them all fast enough.

"What can I do?" I ask.

"Hold me." is all she can manage through sobs.

I do as she says without hesitation, flip her over so she's on top of me and hold her close. She's got her arms around my neck and sobbing into my shoulder. Many kisses and hugs later, she's finally asleep again. There's a big tear stain on my pillow and it's gone through to the mattress. My bare shoulder is wet and her hair is sticking to it. I peel her hair off and roll over so she's laying beside me once again. She instantly snuggles closer to me and her arms never once let go.

PAISLEYS POV:

I wake once again to the face of a concerned looking Ethan, only inches away from my own. I can tell he's been staring at me for quite a while, you can see it in his eyes. His, Ethan, him. He's the reason I've held on so long, the reason I haven't just ended it. My life here is hell, but this is what he wants. I haven't told anyone besides Christina about it, and I haven't given her the details either. There's nothing anyone can do about it, so there's no point in worrying them.

A/N: these chapters are actually so short, I'm so sorry.

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