Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 69.

ETHANS POV:

It's Monday. My first show is in an hour. I am so excited, but also so nervous. I wish Paisley could be here to experience this with me.. It's an experience I would love to show her. Paisleys abortion is tomorrow morning and I'm not even there. I try and put this thought out of my head and focus on my songs and their lyrics. Brai is going on for the half an hour before me. The concert only goes for an hour and a half, so it's not a big one. This tour isn't that big, it's not a stadium tour. There is one stadium location in Adelaide, though, that's our final one. I stop thinking about all of this and stare at the program on the wall while someone comes and does my hair.

Braiden:

-Speech- introducing himself.

-song: What makes you beautiful

-song: Happy

-Speech- is everyone having a good time?

-song: wings

-song: misery

-speech- introducing Ethan.

Ethan:

-Walks on stage, shakes Braiden's hand before Braiden walks off.

- Speech- thank you for coming.

-song: give me love

-song: wonderland

-song: I wanna dance with somebody (all star weekend)

-speech- read banners etc. is everyone having a good time?

-song: night changes

Wardrobe change, show Ethan's journey on screen.

-song: hey, soul sister

-song: still into you.

-finale speech

-final song: my life would suck without you.

That's quite a program, I'm really nervous now. The hair lady leaves the room so I quickly check my phone to see a message from Paisley.

Paisley: good luck for your first show. I'm sitting at home, hungry as fuck but I'm crossing my fingers for you. Xxx

Ethan: I wish you were here. baby, not long before you can eat again. Only five more days and I will see you again xoxo

Paisley: I wish I was too, but I can't wait to see you. Have the time of your life because you deserve a break babe xoxox

Ethan: I love you so much, I have to go now. I'll call you after okay? Xxx

Paisely: I'll be here xoxox have a wonderful time. Fingers crossed.

I put my phone down and walk to wardrobe. I see Brai is in there, standing by a rack of clothes.

"Their letting us pick what we wear this show!" He says excitedly, sorting through clothes.

I end out with a pair of black skinny jeans and a white t-shirt for my first bit and a pair of beige coloured pants with a different white t-shirt for my second bit.

"Brai!?" Someone calls once we're all changed.

"Yeah?" He calls back, standing up a bit.

"You're on in ten!" They call back. He takes a deep breath and stands up completely.

"Let's go look at the crowd." I say, standing up. I need to do something to get my mind less nervous.

Brai follows me out through the winding hallways until I see a giant stage curtain. The noise is deafening. We hide behind it and look out the little gap in the side. I step back when I see, the crowd is massive. There's thousands of screaming girls holding banners and signs. They're all wearing unofficial merchandise and they all have their devices out ready to record. I don't even know why I'm this popular.

"Brai! Right hand stage please!" A stage manager says from behind us. I follow him to the right hand stage so I can watch. We stand there for a few minutes, Ishow him about my cards. I had them in my pocket. They actually seemed to help him a lot too. With a quick shove, Brai was pushed on stage, walking into the spotlight. Show time.

PAISLEYS POV:

I am sitting on the couch at home, just feeling sad. I don't even know why I feel so sad all of a sudden. I just want Ethan here.. I don't want Jai or Chris right now. I want Ethan, and I'm so sad. I didn't think letting him follow his dreams could make me feel so bad. I just feel sad. I want him here.

ETHANS POV:

That was one of the best experiences of my life, and there's plenty more to come. Brai and I are heading out to the bus all sweaty and red, but it was so worth it. This is what I love to do, and I'm getting the chance to do it. I just wish Paisley was here. Paisley, that reminds me. We hop on the tour bus and I immediately run past the beds and straight to the back sitting area. I dig my phone out of my backpack and call Paisley.

She doesn't answer.

I call again.

No answer.

I decide to text her.

Ethan: Baby? Have you fallen asleep or something? Xoxo

15 minutes later and she hasn't replied.

Ethan: okay, goodnight my princess and I'll talk to you tomorrow xox

I feel sort of disappointed that I couldn't tell her everything I want to right now. She said she would be there to talk to me. I hope she's okay. I push that thought out of my mind and stick with the whole 'fallen asleep' thing. It is pretty late and she has a big day ahead of her.

Peace, love and Ethan Karpathy.