Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 27.

PAISLEYS POV:

I really hope our plan with Grace and Chris works out. They seem just as perfect for each other as Ethan and I are. I guess it is my fault Chris even had to worry about this, I just feel so terrible. Im having a... Flat day. I just get these sometimes, the days where I can't just pick out the positive things in life. These days I feel like I can't recover, but I have to. Brai and Cat have gone back to Cats house to get her some new clothes or something. Brai wanted to know where her house was in case he was going to come over any time.

"Bad day?" Ethan asks, noticing my lack of words.

"Not the best." I sigh. He knows what I mean.

'Going out tonight
Changes into something red
Her mother doesn't like that kind of dress.' Ethan starts to sing.

'Everything she never had she's showing off.' he continues.

"Ethan." I whine, laughing a little.

'Driving too fast
Moon is breaking through her hair
She's heading for something that she won't forget
Having no regrets is all that she really wants' he sings softly, crawling over so he's laying next to me.

'We're only getting older, baby
And I've been thinking about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?' He sings quietly in my ear. I swear this can change my whole mood for the whole day, make me feel this warm tingle in my stomach. Every word he sings is a step to recovery.

'Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you.' he continues as perfectly as usual.

"I love you." I whisper under my breath. I don't want him to stop, but I needed to say it.

'Chasing it tonight,
Doubts are running 'round her head
He's waiting, hides behind a cigarette
Heart is beating loud, and she doesn't want it to stop'

"Should I stop?" He asks.

"Please don't stop." I whisper as I close my eyes and savour the rest of the song.

'Moving too fast
Moon is lighting up her skin
She's falling, doesn't even know it yet
Having no regrets is all that she really wants

We're only getting older, baby
And I've been thinking about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you

Going out tonight
Changes into something red
Her mother doesn't like that kind of dress
Reminds her of a missing piece of innocence she lost

We're only getting older, baby
And I've been thinking about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change, baby
It will never change, baby
It will never change me and you.' he finishes.

"Better?" He asks.

"Better."

He rolls over so he's laying on top of me and leans down to kiss my cheeks. He kisses the left, then the right. He then kisses by my ear where he knows I love it. I swear he knows every single flaw in me. He knows everything.

"Ugh, just kiss me." I whine.

"Nah," he teases. He continues to kiss me in various places all over my cheeks and forehead, but he purposely avoids my lips.

I just cup both of my hands on his cheeks and hold him still, I bring myself up and just kiss the living daylights out of him. I think he was a bit taken aback at first because he didn't expect that, but after a second or two, he seemed to be enjoying it. Maybe just a little too much. I could feel him getting more and more turned on by every second, so I just stop. Simply stop. I push him off, sit up and walk over to my cupboard.

"Huh?" He asks, a cute look of confusion on his face. It takes all my strength not to smile, or just go back, rip his shirt off and eat his face off. Well, maybe not literally, but you know want I mean. Only God knows what I would give for that.

"And that's what it feels like to be teased."

"That wasn't nice. I was enjoying myself." Ethan whines.

"I know you were. That's why I did it." I say.

"That's not fair." he continues to whine.

"True." I admit, but Brai and Cat walk back in.

"Anything interesting happen while we were gone?" Cat asks.

"Nope."

We all sit in a circle on the floor- which I just realised we do a lot. It's like our little social circle I guess, it's the only private place we can really talk.

"Any news worth talking about?" Ethan asks.

"I just wanted to say how amazcited I am to be getting myself and my music out there." Brai pipes up.

"Amazcited?" I ask.

"Oh, it's when you're amazingly excited." He explains as if it was the most normal thing in the world. He just gets three incredibly confused expressions staring at him, He shrugs and plays with his fingers.

"Well, you know what I'm 'Amazcited' about?" Cat asks, doing the little air quotes with her fingers around 'amezcited'.

"What?" Ethan asks.

"Oh, just the fact that... I got the contract!" Cat squeals.

"What!?" I ask in the same tone.

"I know! I can't believe it! I saw the letter when we went home this morning!" She says as she stands up and starts to jump out her excitement.

"I'm going to jump with you!" I say as I get up and soon both of us are just jumping around and squealing.

We are interrupted by the doorbell ringing so we all run downstairs and open to door. Chris and Grace are standing there, they are holding hands which I guess is a really good sign. They come inside and we walk back up to my room. I swear this is all we do every single day. But our lives are never boring. We sit on the floor- as per usual, and start to introduce everyone.

"Cat, this is Grace and Chris." Ethan starts, but can't continue because both of our phones go off at pretty much the same time.

We look down at our phones and realise who it is.

"Christina." I say at the same time Ethan says "Jye.".

We both look at each other, we know this can't be good. They almost always call on one phone, they're always together. And when they're not, they wouldn't call at the same time. Plus, I can feel it. Something's not wrong.

"I'm really sorry, guys. We have to take these." Ethan says as we both rush out the room to take our calls.