Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 48.

PAISLEYS POV:

I turn and run down the road as fast as I can, not bothering to look behind me as I figured it would slow me down. I have no where to go, except.. Home. That's where I'm going to go, there's nowhere else besides Chris' and he's not there. I realise I have my keys on me still, so I run to unlock the side gate and run around the back, letting myself in the back door. I run up to Ethan's room and collapse to my knees on the floor. I don't know why I went to Ethan's room, it just felt right. I cry and cry until I don't even know why I'm crying anymore.

"Paisley," I hear a small, puffed out voice say from the door. I look up to see him, Ethan.

"What?" I ask, sniffling away some of my tears.

"You need to come back to me. I need you, you need me. Please just accept that." he says.

"If that's the case, why do we keep fighting? We break up and get back together so much. It's not right."

"Paisley, that's mother natures way of letting us know that no matter what, we can make it through in love. We have been tested in so many ways, and all its done is proven how strong we are, together. Without you, I am nothing. I hope I can think the same for you" Ethan tells me. I didn't think of it that way.

"Ethan, why did you do that? Why did you put that pressure on me? You knew I had to say yes if everyone was watching and waiting for my answer." I ask, finally working out why I'm crying so much.

"Paisley, that's all that was left on my list of things I could do." he tells me, walking towards me a bit, but keeping his distance.

"Why would you do that, Ethan? You know-" I start again, but I am cut off by a pair of warm lips on mine.

ETHANS POV:

"Why would you do that, Ethan? You know-" she starts again, but I can't help myself. I crash my lips into hers, hoping it will work.

At first she tries to push me off, but then she just relaxes and kisses back. I feel a tear on my nose and I realise it was Paisley's. I pull away for a second to wipe away her tears but she smashes her lips back into mine, kissing me like she's making up for all the ones she's missed the past week. It's hard to believe, but it's only been about that long, it felt like a lifetime. Does this mean we're back together? I have this sinking feeling that this is goodbye. This can't be goodbye, Ethan. She would've just left, right? She's back now, I'm sure of it. I'm going to make sure she knows who every contact on my phone is and that she can read any message any time she wants. I need her to know that my secrets are her secrets and that no matter what, I will be here for her. I am so distracted with my thoughts right now, but I'm managing to multitask. I'm just talking to myself in the hope that I can convince myself that she's back with me for good. I need to make sure she stays, and never leaves again. I know how many times I have said this, but I mean it each and every time. I guess it just means that our love as been tested, and tested, and tested some more, and we now know we can always get through anything when it comes to our love.

She slowly stands up, breaking the kiss, leaving me hungry for more. She has this cheeky look in her eye, though. She takes a step back and my instincts make me stand up. She takes another step back, and I take one towards her. We continue this pattern until she reaches behind her and touches the wall, her gaze not leaving mine.

"I love you." I whisper.

She doesn't reply, but it only takes a few seconds for her lips to be on mine. I feel her teeth grazing against my bottom lip, and she says something that i can't quite work out.

"Catch me." she mumbles, jumping. I do as she says, catching her under her upper thighs.

"You can touch me." she whispers, pulling away to plant a small kiss next to my ear.

I smile at her then crash my lips back onto hers, carrying her back to the bed, my hands slipping further upwards. I lay her down on her back and rest over her, holding myself up with my arms. I take a second to look at her. Her hair is falling over her face, her lips slightly parted, her chest moving with every deep breath she takes. I feel a hand on the back of my neck and her lips against mine once again. She wriggles underneath me until she's in a kneeling position. Without breaking the kiss, her fingertips find their way onto the bottom button of my shirt. That's when I realise what's actually about to happen.

"Are we doing this?" I have to ask, listening to her heavy breathing in my ear.

"Do you want to?" She asks, sounding breathless.

"Mhmm." I decide, pressing my lips back to hers.

***

I never thought something like this would happen to me at the age of fifteen, but it did. I could never picture myself with a girl like Paisley a few years ago, but now I am. My life is headed in a great direction, I have a record contract for two years with Sony, and I'll soon have plenty of money. I can tell Paisley's going to do incredibly well in the whole modelling business. One day when we're older and ready, we will have those kids we have talked about. We will live in a big, country house- just like Paisley wants and we will raise our family the way we want, not the way a stupid manual or baby class says. But right now, I'm just enjoying my first ever sex with the girl of my dreams.

It wasn't rough, it wasn't lustful and drunken, it was love. There was no crazy moans, no wild fucking, just gentle, first time sex. It doesn't matter than we're underage and what we just did was technically illegal. We used protection and it was enough to show the love we have for one another. We always promised that our first time would be each other, and now we made that true.

A/N: ...when I read this, it kind of sounded like a final chapter. I'm here officially telling you that this is NOT the final chapter, but.. there are not many more ideas in my head for this story. If you have any more, please inbox them to me, it would be much appreciated. I'm also looking for some feedback, so if anyone has any feedback, please let me know in the comments or by inbox. Please remember to vote and comment, not only for this book, but for 'My Ethan Karpathy' as well. I would love to stay at number one, but as I have no more chapters for anyone to vote on for that story, I'm slipping down. Please remember- if you haven't already, to vote for the chapters in 'My Ethan Karpathy'. This is pointless and no one is going to do it anyway, no ones probs reading this anyway.. So k.

Peace, love and Ethan Karpathy.