Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 71.

PAISLEYS POV:

I wake up in a small, white room. Am I dead? Did I succeed? I realise I'm in a hospital bed, dressed in a hospital gown. I almost have a panic attack there and then when I see the amount of machines and drips attached to me. A machine starts beeping wildly and a nurse rushes into the room. She sees me, her eyes open wide and then she rushes out.

"She's awake!" I hear her say as though a miracle has just happened. A doctor comes into the room, smiling softly as he sees me.

"Hello, I am doctor Tim, and I'm just going to ask you a few questions which I need you to answer as honesty as possible." he says, trying to sound soothing. I'm just scared.

"What's your full name and how old are you?" He asks.

"Im Paisley May Arrons and I'm fifteen years old."

"Okay, good. How do you feel right now?" He asks.

"My arm is sore, the same with my stomach." I answer, realising the burning pain in my stomach.

"Can you describe the pain in your stomach?" He asks.

"It's like its on fire." I reply, trying to think of an answer.

"Okay.. How long do you think you were asleep?" He asks, copying something down on his clipboard.

"Excuse me?" I ask, hoping I'm just confused.

"I said, how long do you think you were asleep?" He repeats.

"I-I didn't know I was sleeping for more than the usual time. I just woke up." I explain, feeling like I'm missing something.

"Alright. Paisley, you've been asleep for three days. You are so lucky that Jai saved you from drinking any more bleach. And called an ambulance. We didn't think you would wake up, let alone have no memory loss. You hit your head, and we've had to flush your body out. You're okay now." he says.

I remember Jai, but I feel like I'm forgetting someone. Then it hits me. Ethan. I almost forgot about Ethan. I remember every single detail on Ethan now, how he's on tour and what we've been through. For that short few minutes, I had forgotten Ethan.

"Is there anyone here I can see?" I ask.

"Jai is here, and so is Holly. They claim to be your adoptive mother and best friend. Is that correct?" He asks.

"Yes." I reply.

"Can I let them in?" He asks.

"Only Jai." I say. If I've been asleep for three days, I need to talk to Jai.

The doctor leaves the room and I hear some whispering. Then Jai comes in.. He looks a mess. His hair is all messy like he hasn't brushed it in days, his clothes are dirty and crinkled, his eyes are tired and puffy like he's been crying for days on end. When he sees me, he runs over and tries his best for a hug through all the drips.

"Jai, I'm okay." I whisper, hoping he will let go because this is hurting me. He lets go as a fresh wave of tears falls from his eyes.

"I thought you were dead. You were in my lap, and the ambulance showed up. I haven't slept, I haven't eaten, I haven't been home. I can't believe you made it. I love you so much. You're my best friend." he says, grabbing my hand and crying into the side of the bed.

"I know, Jai. Thank you for saving me. Thank you a lot." I say, trying not to cry because it hurts my stomach.

"Jai.. The baby. I missed the abortion." I say, realising.

"The baby.. The baby was killed by the bleach." he says slowly. I feel like I've murdered someone.

(A/N: idk if that works but idc)

"Oh my god." is all I can say, staring at the ceiling.

"Can I check your wrist?" He asks, standing up.

I notice for the first time, the tight wristband I have over my left wrist. Jai peels back one of the edges and goes pale. He sits back down on the chair again.

"Is it bad?" I ask, not really wanting to know the answer.

"Yes. Don't look."

We sit there in silence before I work out a question that's been bugging me.

"Where's Ethan?" I ask.

"Um.. Ethan's still on tour. We haven't told him many details." he says guiltily.

"Are we still going to Drysdale?" I ask. I have so many questions.

"Only if you want, I think I'm delaying the flight until the day Ethan goes," he says. "They want to keep you here for a few days."

"I want to see Ethan." I say simply.

"Then we will go Tuesday" he replies, resting his chin on the bed and smiling at me. I can tell that's the first smile he's smiled in a while.

A/N: I put some fetus Jai on this chapter, so if anyone's in a bad mood.

Peace, love and Ethan Karpathy.