Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 81.

PAISLEYS POV:

I wake up an hour or so later. I thought these nightmares were over, I guess they aren't. I try not to make a sound, I try not to open my eyes. Haunting images force my eyes open and I'm met with the canvas wall of the caravan. I must've turned over again. My backs pressed up firmly to Jai and his arms are wrapped tightly around me still.I try to control my breathing, trying not to freak out, then close my eyes and another image haunts my view, causing my instincts to make me jolt up and gasp. This of course wakes Jai up. He sits up sleepily and yawns a bit, stretches and puts his arm around me again. I try to shuffle forward but he sort of paws at my waist, telling me to come back. The sweat is slowly drying off my face and I look at my watch to see the time is much later than I thought. It's 6:00 am. I know I can't see Ethan today, but I'm not sure I want to spend the whole day with Jai. I really want to call Ethan but I know I can't. Jai's still half asleep and the temperatures warming up as the time gets closer to sunrise. I shake Jai's hand off and crawl completely to the side of the bed. I jump off the edge and sort of stumble but recover. I find my phone in the darkness and fumble my way through to the door. I open it and step out into the dimly lit light of the morning. I don't know who I'm going to call, but I do have an idea. My mind is telling me to call this person, so I will. I might wake them up, but I'm sure they won't mind if the rumours and my judgements are true. I call him, and he picks up on the third ring.

"Brai." I greet, making sure to step out of Jai's range so he can't hear me.

"Paisley? Are you okay?" He asks, sleepiness filling his words. I hear footsteps and I assume he's walking to the end of the bus or something.

"Im okay. I'm just confused and I want to talk to someone." I say honestly.

"Why didn't you call Ethan?" He asks curiously.

"We're keeping away until after the concert." I explain.

"Oh, is everything alright between you two?" He asks. His voice sounds more curious than caring and it makes me think more and more of my concept.

"Yeah, just a lot of stuff happening."

BRAI'S POV:

When my phone rang, i almost had a heart attack. It woke me right out of a really good dream.. At first I was angry but then I saw it was Paisley. I pick up the phone and walked as quickly as possible so I could say her name without Ethan hearing.

"Brai." she greets. She sounds like she's walking.

"Paisley? Are you okay?" I ask, trying to wake up.

"Im okay. I'm just confused and I want to talk to someone." she admits.

"Why didn't you call Ethan?" I ask curiously.

"We're keeping away until after the concert." she explains.

This could be my chance... But I'm thinking like a dick head again.

"Oh, is everything alright between you two?" I ask, trying to sound caring but I think I failed.

"Yeah, just a lot of stuff happening." She replies.

"Do you want to meet somewhere and we can talk?" I ask, hoping she will.

"Where do you want to meet?" She asks.

"I'll meet you wherever you are and we can walk."

"Okay, I'll be waiting out the front." she says. I hang up and just think for a second. What happened to Jai? I change my top and then leave. Ethan's still asleep so I'll text him later. I think my feelings for Paisley are slowly disapearing, but they're definitely still there.

PAISLEYS POV:

I decide I need to try something. I know what I'm doing behind Ethan's back is so wrong, but I really don't have a choice in my mind. I know I should just go to Ethan, kiss him and hopefully everything should be okay. I'm not just doing that, though. I'm going to kiss all three of them, and see if anything changes. I can see Brai walking across the grass so I stand up. He sees me and quickens his pace. When he reaches me, I make a split decision. I give him a quick one armed hug and tell him to hang on a sec. I run back inside and take a few layers off, leaving me in black skinny jeans and a wider strapped tank top. I take a deep breath and walk quickly over to Jai's bed. The curtain is pulled over but I pull it back without announcing my presence. Jai has his back to me but he's shirtless. He has a perfect tan for some reason. I jump up onto the bed and scare the shit out of him. He turns around and I see he was on his phone. I push him back, crawl on top and kiss him. He kisses back instantly, dropping his phone and putting his hands on my hips. This is really awkward because I only have one arm, so I pull away.

"Thank you." I say, suddenly leaving again.

"No, thank you."

I run back out to Brai and try not to smile as we begin to walk. We walk down the road sort of towards my old house. I make sure to turn the corner before the park, because I don't want anyone I know seeing me with someone other than Ethan. I explain everything I can to Brai, leaving out the bits with him in it.

BRAIS POV:

I listen as she tells me everything. Although, I know it's not everything. I'm starting to get really nervous that she knows now. The more and more she talks, the more and more convinced I become. She's been talking about having to choose between Jai and Ethan. It's only when she slips up her story that I realise it.

"I just don't know what to do. Three guys like me and I'm so confused." she says, realising right after that she slipped up. She knows, she definitely knows.An awkward silence fills the air and I can't help but look guilty. I sort of stare at the ground, looking like the most awkward person ever.

"How did you know?" I ask, trying to sound confident.

"You can see it in your eyes. Besides, everyone pretty much knows." she says quietly, stopping in her tracks. She's right under the shade of a palm tree, and the shadows casted on her are making her look so pretty.

"Brai, I need to try something. Please know that it probably isn't more than it seems. I'm so sorry." she says, stepping closer to me. She sort of grabs half a handful of the neck of my T-shirt and pushes me back against the tree trunk.

She kisses me, slow at first, then the pace quickens as the kiss becomes more deep and heated. She's got me pushed up against the tree, one hand on my shoulder, but my hands some how find her hips. She pulls away after a long moment, and stares at the ground, her mouth slightly parted open. She blinks rapidly a couple of times, then nods.

A/N: I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU BECAUSE MY ETHAN KARPATHY AND LET YOURSELF FALL ARE NUMBER ONE AND TWO NOW. I CANT BE BOTHERED WITH PUNCTUATION SO ILL JUST LEAVE IT AT THANK YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU ALL.

OH YEAH, ONE MORE SMALL, TINY, INSIGNIFICANT THING...

HA, JUST KIDDING. THIS IS THE BIGGEST THING THATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

IM MEETING JAI BAE ON FRIDAY OMF YAS. I DIE NOW.

PEACE, LOVE AND ETHAN KARPATHY.