Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 68.

ETHANS POV:

This is it. I'm leaving today, and I'm not going to see her for a week and a bit. Im going to miss her so much it's not even funny. I think a week hurts, but there's over a month to go after that. I honestly don't know how I'm going to cope with this. I know she has Jai, and I have Brai, but I'm still going to feel lonely. Half the tour will be on a bus, and half is on a plane. The first leg is on a bus, we're taking the bus to Drysdale. I honestly can't wait. I'm standing outside Sony with Brai, Paisley and Jai. Holly is waiting in the car with Rachael. Jack is at a play date with one of his daycare friends.

"I'm going to miss you so much." I say, turning to her.

"Me too, I'll see you in a week though." she says, stepping away from the others. She pulls me behind this small concrete wall which has a big mosaic of music notes on the front. She grabs my hands and just looks at me.

"What am I going to do while you're not around?" She asks, now feeling more comfortable talking in a more private area.

"I guess you'll have to find someone else to kiss." I joke. Judging by her espression, she doesn't think it's a joke.

"Baby, I'm joking. You better not find someone else to kiss." I tell her, making her smile a bit.

"I will be expecting all those lost kisses back by the way." she says, smirking at me.

"You can guarantee that." I reply just before her lips slam into mine.

Her kisses are hungry and desperate, like she wants to remember it for a long time. I guess she does. One hand cups my cheek while one is in the back of my hair. Mine are on her hips, holding her close to me. I might as well hold her while I can.

"Ethan! The bus is here" Brai calls. We reluctantly pull away, staring into each others eyes.

"I'm going to miss you so much." she says, starting to cry as she hugs me.

"I'll see you in a week." I say into her hair, trying not to cry myself.

She grips me tighter so I pull her in even closer. Then she jumps unexpectedly right into my arms and wraps her legs around me. I almost drop her to be honest, but I save myself from the embarrassment and catch her under her thighs. We stand there in the biggest hug known to man until Jai comes around the wall.

"Really sorry, but Ethan, you really gotta go." he says. I swear I heard her whisper 'please don't go' like she didn't want me to hear it. I don't want to let go now, so I completely ignore Jai and hold her for those last few seconds.

"Guys, seriously." he says more seriously now. I kiss her neck and try to pull away, but she holds on. Jai grabs her from behind and peels her off of me once he sees I'm struggling.

"I'll see you guys in a week. I'll talk you tonight, baby. I love you so much." I rush as I peck a crying Paisley on the cheek.Jai's holding her around her waist and pinning her arms down. Leaving her in a state like that just hurts me, she looks like she really doesn't want me to go.. I have to go.

PAISLEYS POV:

"You have to let him go." Jai whispers over my shoulder as we walk out from behind that concrete wall.

I don't say anything, just let the tears fall down my cheeks. I don't know why I'm crying so much, I am really scared for my operation to be honest. I just wish he could be there with me. I don't move out of Jai's grip as the bus drives away. I catch a glimpse of Ethan in the back window and try to smile at him, to not make him feel bad.

"C'mon." Jai says, kissing my forehead.

I follow Jai back to the car and silently slide into the backseat. Holly drives us home without making a sound. She's not mad at the whole pregnancy thing for some reason.. I really don't understand it to be honest. I know I shouldn't be scared, this is going to fix everything. When Ethan gets back, I'm going to be fixed up. I'm going to be better both mentally and physically, and he's not going to know what hit him.

A/N: I'm sort of switching between devices writing these.. And the devices are all on different wattpad updates. I don't actually know how long these chapters are.. But i hope they're not too short.

Also, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE KIND MESSAGES ON MY MESSAGE BOARD. YOU GUYS KEEP ME GOING.

Peace, love and Ethan Karpathy.