Let Yourself Fall // sequel to My Ethan Karpathy

Chapter 84.

BRAIS POV:

I think I fell asleep with her, because when I open my eyes, she's still there. I think I've dreamed of this, waking up with Paisley in the bed next to me. I know we aren't together or anything, but it sends this nice feeling around me. I decide to get up, to let her rest some more. I pull the blanket down and walk quietly out the room. I don't see Ethan anywhere, so I walk out to the back of the bus and am about to reach the couch when I feel a body slam against me, pushing me to the wall. I realise straight away that it is Ethan, and I'm not sure what I am supposed to do.

"That was a really bad move letting her sleep with you." he says quietly but threateningly.

"What is wrong with you?" I ask, not even bothering to fight back. I know Paisley doesn't want that.

"Nothing is fucking wrong with me! What's wrong with you? Im not the one that goes around kissing other guys girls!" He spits, stepping back.

"You don't even deserve her!" I yell, making him give me a dirty look.

"What do you fucking mean?" He yells, smashing his fist against the wall next to my right ear.

"You got her pregnant, and you left once you found out! You left her there, crying and sad!" I yell, only just saying it because it was the first thing that popped into my mind.

"How'd you know that?" He asks, his anger dropping for a second.

"We all knew, we knew before you did. It was fucking obvious, but you didn't even see it. You weren't there for her when she needed you. You should've gone to the bathroom every fucking time she was sick, held her hair back for her and brought her water. But no, you sat on your fucking ass and did nothing!" I reply, my anger bubbling inside me.

"Like you'd do any better." he spits.

"Damn fucking straight I would."

Ethan grabs a fistful of my shirt and drags me away from the wall. He shoves me and I stumble back, tripping over my own feet. I land on the floor hard as the impact sends pain shooting up and down my stomach. I'm still not fully recovered from the last fight. I push myself backwards along the ground until my back meets the wall. I use it to pull my body weight up until I'm standing again. My rage just dumps itself on top of me and I rush forward, pushing myself into Ethan with all my strength. I get him to stumble back and hit the wall.

He shoves me back, and it suddenly just turns into a shoving fight. Each shove gets harder and more painful.

"You will never have Paisley! She is mine, and I'm not letting anyone else steal her from me again." he yells, shoving me again.

"Maybe that's what she needs! Someone who isn't a fucking screw up!" I yell at him, shoving him right back as hard as I can. This is getting boring.

He stops in his tracks and let's me shove him, seeming like he's not phased at all. I can tell those words hurt, and I can't help but feel good about that. All of a sudden he rushes forward and digs his knee deep into my stomach, making me drop to the floor. Something tells me to go for his nose, but I know it's already broken.

"Brai! Ethan! Stop!" I hear someone screaming from the doorway. I look to see Paisley, but look straight back at Ethan. He's already on his way to shoving me again, thinking he's caught me off guard. He hasn't, I side step him and he stumbles past.

I should've thought this one through, because the next thing I feel is a sharp pain in the back of my head. I spin and automatically my fist connects with his neck, making him clutch himself in pain. His neck still isn't healed, but I totally forgot about it until now.

Paisley is still standing there, her left leg shaking. I can tell she wants to walk over, but she can't bring herself to do so.

"Paisley, go away!" Ethan yells, standing back up again, trying to look brave.

"Ethan don't do this." she says quietly.

"Paisley, you're going to fall for his pathetic story, and I can't have that. I need you, he doesn't." he says, hiding his anger completely.

"Don't," she warns. I see Ethan moving out the corner of my eye. "Don't even think about it."

"Paisley go back in, I'm okay." I tell her, hoping I don't make Ethan angrier.

"I thought I told you not to talk to her." he says, trying so hard not to punch me right now.

"I'll talk to whoever I want." I spit back at him. I receive a sharp knee in the stomach, which makes me double over in pain. I can barely breathe and the pain is almost unbearable. I will not cry, I will finish this. I didn't see her leave, but she did. Ethan looks at me with this look which terrifies me.

"You're such a fucking idiot. Just because you can't find your own girl, don't fucking touch mine!" He yells.

"Are you such a dick because, well, small dick?" I challenge him, knowing this will set him off.

"That's it. Paisley is mine. Get that into your tiny, fucked up brain of yours. She will never be yours, never. Do you hear me? Man up and stay away!" He says, his fist balling up by his side.

"Man up? I almost took her virginity way before you did!" I say, not realising I said it until I realised it was too late.

"You did what?" He asks in the most angry voice I've ever heard.

"Nothing." I say way too quickly.

He grabs my shirt and shoves me against the wall again, holding his arm across my neck. I'm fucking scared right now, he's got that look in his eye.

"Tell me now, or you'll regret it." he says, lowering his voice a lot.

"No." I answer, knowing it will hurt Paisley if I tell him anything.

He presses his thumb onto my stomach and starts to dig it in, causing unbearable pain. My stomach is not prepared for this at all, and it makes me want to scream out in pain. I try to knee him, anything to get him off, but he has me pinned. He digs his finger further and further into my stomach, waiting for me to give in. I stand there and try to withstand the pain, knowing I can't do it much longer. The pain is weakened when I feel someone push their way in between us. Ethan is pushed back off me and for some reason, my knees give in and I fall to the floor.

"Stop it! Both of you, stop it!" Paisley says, sounding really upset.

"Not until this shit is finished." I say. I jump forward and pull Ethan to the floor, bashing the living crap out of his stomach. I wonder how he feels now.Paisley tries to pull me off, and I feel a drop fall on my arm, but I don't stop. I want Ethan to know that he can't mess with me and get away with it.

ETHANS POV:

I ended up walking away from Brai. I realised Paisley means more to me than anything else, and this isn't the way to get her to stay with me. I don't know what keeps coming over me, I keep getting this massive ass jealous feeling in my stomach. It drives me crazy. All I can think about now is how guilty I feel, what did I just do in front of Paisley? I think I owe her more of an apology than I owe Brai. I walk into the bedroom and see she's not there, so I go on to check everywhere. She's not here. I get my phone out my pocket and see a massive crack in the corner. I decide to ignore it and just call her. After three goes, she still doesn't pick up. I text her and hope that she replies, or even reads the message.

After 15 minutes, I decide to go for a walk and see if she's at the caravan. I check the time and see it's 4:15, meaning John's coming back soon. I run out the bus as quickly as possible and walk down to the caravan park. That's really weird.. The caravans completely gone. I'm sort of worried, but something tells me I've done this myself. A lot of instincts tell me how many things I've done wrong. When she said if I laid a finger on Brai, we were over, I thought I knew she didn't mean that. Maybe she did mean it, and if that's the case, Jai's about to swoop in.

I can't let that happen.