The Happiness Of Tragedy

Chapter 63

June 10 2018

My birthday is in two months and honestly it doesn't matter what goes on anymore at this point. I'm still writing in this notebook because it helps to write things out instead of keeping it bottled up in my head. I'm turning 20 and it may be childish of me to do this but who cares. I'm starting college soon at Tampa and I don't know if I'm excited to go or not. At least Christina isn't going to be there, I'm so glad we broke up. She was the worst and if it wasn't for me finding out she was cheating, I would've done it eventually. David invited me to go to this party he has to attend at the end of the month and I'm not even sure if I should go to that. My high school friends found out and they want me to ask David if they could come but I am not. The only thing they are good for is getting in trouble.

That's the end of the next entry and I flip to find the very next one. A hint of smile playing at my lips, he broke up with his girlfriend but I need to know if the party he is talking about is the one at my high school.

The party started out great I guess but the way it ended made my whole night a bust. I saw this girl, and she was so beautiful. She hadn't even noticed me the whole night but I noticed her. She wore a black dress and she had hair down her back and she was just so perfect. I tried to get to her but she left and I followed her out in the hallway until I saw her again. This guy was practically groping her and I wanted to kill him but I couldn't.

I skipped to the next page.

God, I can't stop thinking about her. I want to know her name and what she likes and if she has a boyfriend. I want to know everything about her and I can't until I know who she is. David isn't trying to give me any info, all he told me was that the guy went to prison which I can care less about. I came home from the store and I started throwing things only to have my Mom freak and my stepdad barge into my room to stop me and give me a talk. I didn't mess anything up really, I just couldn't understand how someone would do that to that girl. That beautiful girl.

"Hey Kat? You haven't eaten any of your food" Violet tells me and I close the book and bite my lip.

"I know, it's okay. I'm not that hungry" I say, smiling.

She raises an eyebrow, "are you feeling okay? And why are you smiling so much?" She puts the back of her hand to my forehead.

I laugh at her, "it's fine Violet" I shake my head.

We get up and head toward the building doors before our next classes. The whole time we walk Violet starts talking but the sounds of her voice just fades with the crowd that surrounds. My thoughts immediately go straight to the notebook, how Levi talked about me. How he said I was beautiful and I didn't deserve what happened, no one does. He actually talks about me. I swear I wish I could skip classes and just run to him and tell him how much he means to me but that would be completely ridiculous. I blew him off and he probably doesn't want to see my face ever again.

"So like I think I'll wait till we come back from break to give you guys presents since I'll probably not have time all break to get them until the end" she explains.