The Happiness Of Tragedy

Chapter 84: Part One

I woke up before my boyfriend did.

Boyfriend

Just to think about the word rather than say it is just hard to handle right now. I blink a couple times to clear the vision, my vision in front of me. Levi breathes slowly and steady, his face about inches away from mine and somehow my mind wishes he was closer to me. I swallow, my throat dry and in need of refreshments before I turn my body toward him just a little. His arm is draped around my body, my waist and as much as I don't want to move I have the urge to pee. Instead I reach up with my fingernail and move the tasseled hair out of his face, his sculpted tanned face that I missed so much.

I rub his cheek and he stirs just a little, the sight of him is beyond everything I have ever wanted. More than anything, my mind plays the words he said to me last night. About how I'm his and no one else's but it feels like I'm the lucky one, that he is mine and no one elses. No one will ever be with him, feel his touch or his kisses or his intimacy but me. What if I'm not enough in the long run?

If theres one thing I know, is that I'm lucky. Lucky to have him back, lucky to be in his arms and feel his touch and have his kids if he wants them. Lucky to have him with me right now, what if he had ended up leaving last night? I would've been pushing him away again and I could've lost him once again, it's me. I have to stop doing that to him because he doesn't deserve it at all. He wants me, he said he chose me every since the first day we met.

My hand softly trails from his cheek to his lips and down to his neck, there's a hickey but instead of panicking I smile at him and bite my lip. He really is mine now.

I move my hand to his chest and arms, his muscles and down to his abs but I stop. I don't go any lower but my heart speeds and the memories of last night come to my head. I could still feel his touch, his kisses and the way he felt to grind and thrust himself so close and into me. I squeeze my legs together, I wince from the pain I suddenly feel between my legs and try swallowing down the sudden turned on feeling I have for him again right now.

I move the cover from my body and his arm slowly turning away from him to sit on the edge of the bed. I'm completely naked and if I take the cover with me to the bathroom, Levi will wake. I look back at him and see that he's managed to turn away from me before I rush to the bathroom as best I can without flinching from the small bits of pain I feel.

I close the door behind me, use the bathroom quickly but still sit there for a minute. I squeeze my hands together from the coldness I feel around my body. Leaning forward my hair falls onto my body, its curled since I hadn't dried it last night. Theres a silver line on my finger when I look down at hands as I play with my hair, I hold my hand out in front of me. Theres a ring, a rose sits in the middle of the silver band and in the middle of that is a small diamond that shines from the lights above me. I swallow but the corner of my lips begin to lift from the happiness that makes it's way to my heart.

I stand completely up fast almost falling over but I grab the sink. I hold my hand out again, thinking how the hell he managed to slip this ring onto my finger? I begin to cheese in the mirror in front of me, I do a silent cheer to myself before licking my lips and kissing the ring. I open the bathroom door and rush out into the room.

"Levi!" I practically yell. He jumps up from his sleep and looks around before rushing to stand but missing his step in between the covers. His body goes crumbling to the floor and I stand back completely wide eyed and in shock of what I just caused.

"Shit! Sorry" I shake my head and he meets my eyes from the floor, "I'm so fucking sorry babe" I smile.

"Jesus Kat, really? I nearly had a heart attack" he shakes his head before smiling. He runs a hand through his hair and down his face before he leans forward on his knees.