Pitch Perfect One-Shots

Chapter CVIII - Bechloe: Good Girl

Based on the post by good-bi-my-lover on Tumblr: https://good-bi-my-lover.tumblr.com/post/189407834820/you-know-when-your-straight-best-friend-that

You know when your straight best friend that you've been in love with for years just casually starts asking you to do stuff and when you do it she calls you a good girl, grabs the inside of your upper thigh and winks at you and you have to hide the fact that your underwear and possibly pants are now absolutely soaked?

Beca Mitchell was hesitant to post the anonymous message online but she had nobody else to turn to. She had been in love with Chloe Beale for almost four years now. Throughout Beca's first year of college, Beca had to endure watching Chloe with her dickhead of a boyfriend Tom that Beca wanted to murder. Thankfully, Chloe broke up with him a few months before the year ended but Beca still hated him. She hated Tom with a passion. She saw the way Tom looked at Chloe as if she were an object. She saw the way Tom looked at other women as objects. Seeing Tom only made Beca's hatred for men grow more and more each day. Tom had no respect for Chloe and Beca wanted to break him in half because Beca had all the respect in the world for Chloe and yet, she couldn't shower the redhead with it because she was "taken".

Beca was sure Chloe was straight. She had to be because she was with Tom. Dickhead Tom. Douchebag Tom. Fuckhead Tom. Beca had fantasised about killing Tom a thousand times over in the slowest possible way and doing all sorts of unimaginable things to his corpse, which was the only way to calm herself down every time she saw his stupid face. Chloe was too good for Tom and it killed Beca to watch him treat Chloe as he did. Chloe was beautiful on the inside and out and Beca was a hardass who didn't feel much but she did for Chloe. She felt everything for Chloe and she hated herself for it. Every time Beca felt something, it would always come back and bite her in the ass, which made Beca even more defensive against others but then came along Chloe Beale who fucked that all up. Beca wasn't sure if she hated the woman or loved her. Probably both.

Beca hovered her finger over the enter pad on her laptop. Asking questions in a public forum was something Beca never thought she'd do but she was desperate. There was no way in Hell Beca was going to talk to the Bellas about her feelings. No. Beca was a hardass who didn't have any feelings. She had to keep up that persona even if it killed her. Beca couldn't run the risk of being exposed and more hurt than she already was. She hated feeling like this and she wanted to get rid of her feelings once and for all. She needed help but she wasn't prepared to talk to someone face-to-face so the Internet was the next best but also the stupidest thing Beca had.

The tiny brunette had enough thinking whether or not she should delete her ask or publish it. She had already deleted it and rewrote it at least ten times now. So, Beca sighed and hit the enter key, posting her ask. Her heart was hammering in her chest but inside her resonated a feeling of relief, even though nobody had replied yet. Beca knew she had to occupy herself because she knew she would fixate on her post until someone replied. Thankfully, Beca had her internship that evening so she got ready and headed off to work, which took her mind away from her post for the most part but it was still in the back of Beca's mind and the brunette hoped that at least someone had replied and if they did, she hoped they were nice about it.

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Beca was surprised by just how many replies she received. She had to scroll to read all of the replies and thankfully, a lot of people were sympathetic towards her and Beca was eager to read what they had to say. Some people related to Beca on many levels and expressed how hard it was to be in love with their straight best friend and ways to cope with it. It was a lot easier said than done, especially those who said: "try not to focus on her too much". Even if Beca wasn't living with Chloe, Hell, even if Beca was living on the other side of the COUNTRY, she would have still thought of Chloe. Again, Beca hated how much she felt for the redhead. She hated how much power Chloe had over her and didn't even try. Beca knew she was giving the power to Chloe every time she thought about her or did something relating to her but she couldn't help it. She was young and in love and everyone knows that young love is difficult to control.