I was in the hospital for a while and I was admitted due to my blood test that said I was dehydrated. I was currently in my own room, sitting on the bed, and an IV drip in my arm. I sighed, waiting for my mom and brother to get here while Adrian was getting food from the cafeteria. I stared at the tv that was playing reruns of Gilmore Girls and stared back down at the ugly beige cast on my foot. I rolled my eyes and stared up at the ceiling, hating the fact that I was in the hospital when I heard a knock on the door, Adrian coming in with a tray full of food.
"Hey, so I didn't know what you wanted so I got you everything I thought you'd like." He shrugged and set the tray down on the roll away table. I smiled and he sat down on the chair next to me.
"Thank you, you know you don't have to stay here, my mom should be here soon."
"It's fine, really." He affirmed and smiled. I nodded and snacked on some of the chips he brought and I gave him the fries he pointed to. We ate silently, watching the tv until my mom finally arrived with my brothers.
She opened the door and gasped at the sight of me with a cast and hooked up to an IV.
"Ay mija, what happened?" She walked towards me and my brothers just stared at me at me from a distance.
"I'll leave you guys alone." Adrian stood up and walked out.
"It's no big deal ma, I was at Adrian's and he tried to cheer me up by playing soccer with him, but I went too far." I shrugged and she nodded, kissing my forehead.
"I'm just glad you're okay." She hugged me and my brothers look scared. I softened my eyes and extended my arms out towards them.
"No hug for big sis?" I asked them and they both approached me, hugging me. I smiled and I began to hear silent sobs come from Hunter. I furrowed my eyebrows and held his face in my hands, wiping away his tears.
"Hunter, bub, I'm okay." I cooed and he nodded, hugging me again. I shook my head and felt my heart drop as the sight of my brother crying. I was hurting them. Jacob had a melancholic look on his face, staring at the ground and not saying anything as Hunter cried. He simply rubbed circles around his back and kept to himself. I sighed and kissed Hunter's head before he sat next to me and I held him in my arms.
Jacob knew the truth, he had to, just by the hungover look on my face and the IV drip.
"So what did the doctor say?" My mom broke the silence and I combed through Hunter's hair.
"He just said that it was broken, but there was no need for surgery, just a cast for about six weeks unfortunately."
"And the IV?" She questioned.
"I'm dehydrated, probably because I haven't had water since I left," I let a deep breath out and I couldn't even say his name. "Shawn's house."
"Oh." She looked down awkwardly. "And are you okay Nicole, about the whole Shawn thing?" She asked and a slowly nodded.
"I don't really feel like talking about it right now mom, if that's okay."
"More than okay." She gave me a small smile and held my hand in hers. We stayed in the hospital for a couple of more hours until I was finally discharged around five in the afternoon. I was given crutches, hopping around and my mom guiding me places I needed to get too. I had finally made it up to my room after she made us dinner and I rested my crutches on the wall as I laid on my bed.
I couldn't stop thinking on how I wanted another drink, just to take the edge off of my physical and emotional pain. I sighed and put my hair up before going on my phone, scrolling through all of the comments made about everything that happened. It all felt so surreal and felt like chaos was all around me. I turned on my side and placed my phone on my desk, not wanting it near me.
I closed my eyes and laid in the silence of my room, feeling bad for myself. I hid under my covers and began to sob silently, losing any sense of dignity of may have had.
"Nicole?" My mom asked and I quickly wiped away my tears before uncovering myself.
"Yeah?" I sniffled and she closed the door behind her, sitting down in front of me.
"Are you okay mija?" She placed her hand on my leg.
"Yeah no I'm fine." I shook my head and I suddenly began to sob again. I cried uncontrollably and she hugged me tightly, trying to comfort me.
"Let it out." She sighed and I cried into her chest.
"He found out, everything." I choked. "He found out about the real me and he just left me. The greatest thing I had in my life and I lost it, all because I was stupid."
"You're not stupid Nicole." She shook her head.
"I love him so much and just seeing him hurt because of me, my heart literally broke." I sobbed.
"He'll come around Nicole."
"No he won't, I really messed up this time, I wasn't honest with him or his family." I shook my head. "I fucked up and now all I want to do is drink and sulk."
"Nicole, I'm going to tell you something my mom would tell me when I would cry over some boy." She sighed and pulled my hair back. "If he was truly yours, he'll come back, and if he wasn't, life goes on."
I wiped my eyes and sat up, listening to what she had to say. I simply understood, having an epiphany. I nodded and she kissed me on the forehead before she left me alone in my room.
"Get some sleep, big day tomorrow." She said while standing near the door, reminding me that I was graduating tomorrow.
I was alone for a bit, getting up and hopping to the bathroom so I could take a shower. I sighed at the sight of my cast and grabbed a plastic bag from underneath my cabinet, tying it to my leg so I wouldn't wet the cast. I showered as fast as I could and tried my hardest not to fall when I got out. I dried myself and got dressed into a pair of shorts and a long sleeve shirt before brushing out my hair and heading back to bed.
I left my phone on my desk, not wanting to deal with it or anyone, and grabbed my computer so I could check my emails and go over my speech. I had a few emails from the community college I had applied to and one email that caught my eye.
It was an email from a radio station, asking for my point of view about the whole situation.
"Wow they work fast." I muttered under my breath and I heard my door creak open.
"Hey." Jacob said and I closed my computer, setting it on the table.
"Hey buddy." I slightly smiled and he stood there awkwardly before I patted the bed, gesturing for him to sit down.
"You okay?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yeah, just tired." I shrugged, silence filling the air for a short time.
"Nicole?"
"Yeah?"
"Did you drink last night, I mean like you used to?" He asked, a worried look on his face and I hesitantly nodded.
"Yeah, I did." I sighed, ashamed.
"But why?"
"I really don't know Jacob, but what I do know is that I'm craving another one right about now." I shook my head. "But I'm trying my best to be sane."
"Please, just, know that I'm here for you. I might be younger than you, but I care about you Nicole." He hugged me and I hugged him back.
"I know, thank you bud, I'm going to try my best." I patted his back and my door creaked open once again.
"Hermana, can I sleep with you tonight?" Hunter came in and climbed on the bed, holding his small monkey stuffed animal.
"How about both of you stay in here tonight? A sleep over." Jacob nodded and Hunter laid in between us before I turned off the lamp. Hunter wasted no time in falling asleep while Jacob and I remained awake, staring at the ceiling.
"I'm going to go to an AA meeting tomorrow before graduation, it won't be like last time." I sighed and he reached over to hold my hand. I slightly smiled and we both soon got comfortable, falling asleep squished together.
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Bad Reputation | S.M.
Fanfiction"mistakes we all make them, but they won't let them go" Meet Nicole Eve Ortega, a seventeen year old girl trying to make the best of her miserable life. As a child Nicole never had to worry about what life brought for her and her family, but a...
