i'm sorry that i fell for you -jaegan-

chapter fifty five - awkward

justins p.o.v

i look at kyle one more time before running down the stairs, my whole outfit soaked.

"justin wait!" i hear him say. when i reach the bottom of the stairs i see raegan walking. he must have been planning to go upstairs to check on me.

i ignore everyone and go outside onto the porch. i ring out my shirt at the bottom of it, trying to get the alcohol out of it.

"babe, hey you alright?" i hear as raegan comes outside and over to me.

"i don't know." i say harshly, wiping down my shirt.

"what happened?" he asks me.

"justin? oh!" i hear behind raegan and he turns around to look at who it is. i see kyle standing there.

"what did you do to him!?" raegan shouts going up to him. he grabs his shirt and puts his face close to kyle's.

"rae stop it." i say quickly, grabbing raegan arms from the side. he let's go of him and looks at me.

"he didn't do anything. some kids just starting running upstairs and one of them bumped into me, making me spill my drink all over myself." i explain and i see kyle rubbing his neck.

"oh okay, so you're alright?" he asks giving me a quick hug.

"i'm fine." i tell him. when he pulls away i walk over to kyle.

"i'm sorry about him, are you okay?" i ask, putting my hand at the neck of his shirt. he stretched out his shirt.

"yeah, it's okay." he says. the cold air starts making me shiver considering my shirt is wet.

"baby you're freezing." i hear raegan say as i see him taking off his shirt. "here, wear this." he offers and i take his shirt.

i look over at kyle and see him looking at me. it think he notices that i don't want him looking at me taking my shirt off. he turns around quickly and i take my shirt off. replacing it with raegan shirt. my binder wet is so uncomfortable.

"can we go home?" i ask raegan as he takes my wet shirt. kyle turns around and just looks at me.

"of course." he nods, kissing my forehead. he grabs my hand and i look over at kyle again.

"i'll text you." i say to him and nods, smiling. "tell dave we left please."

"of course. bye guys." he says as raegan and i walk to the car peacefully. we get inside and it's quiet for a second.

i don't know why but after kyle told me he still liked me, i panicked. it felt awkward and i felt bad. i didn't expect it and i just felt like i was saying all the wrong things.

"are you sure everything is okay?" rae asks me, putting his hand on my thigh.

"yeah, why?" i ask curiosity and he tilts his head.

"you seemed pretty upset from just your drink being spilt on you." he says and i sigh, looking down at his hand.

"uh..kyle told me he still liked me and, i don't know. it made me uncomfortable. talking to him, i wanted to tell him about your accident but i didn't because i thought about the fact that i was talking about you would make him upset. it's stupid." i shrug.

"no it's not stupid." he says. "he didn't try to do anything to you did he?"

"no no of course not. it just felt weird." i tell him and our eyes lock when i look up. he smiles slightly.

"i understand love. let's go home." he says and i nod, leaning back in the chair. "just think how awkward this would of been if we weren't together. your in a car with a shirtless dude." he laughs, trying to lighten the mood.

"i love you." i laugh back with him and he leans over to connect his lips with mine.

"i love you." he says back and starts to drive home. he always knows how to make me smile when i'm not feeling the best. i don't know why that felt so weird. and why the drink being spilt on me made me so pissed.

when we get to my house, we just sit there for a second. i want him to spend the night, i want to be with him.

"can i come in?" he asks sweetly and i look at him.

"can you stay the night?" i ask, ignoring his question and he smiles.

"of course." he gets out of the car and comes to my side. i open the door and walk out. he gives me a quick hug and then we walk in.

my parents are sleeping so raegan and i quietly go upstairs and into my room. we get comfortable, taking off a few layers of clothing. i lay down in my bed first, loving the comfortable feeling. then he does right next to me.

"this feels so nice." i say laying close to him, almost on top of him. he doesn't answer for a second.

"you had a drink tonight..with kyle?" he asks and i was dreading this question. i guess i saw it coming.

"yeah." is all i say. "i just felt like having one." i say next and he turns his head to me, our eyes loving.

"you never feel like having one with me." he says immediately and i sigh.

"i don't know babe, i didn't even really like it. i just thought why not? ya know." i tell him, running my fingers through his hair on the back of his head. he nods gently, closing his eyes.

i admire his face while i have the chance. he's even beautiful with his eyes closed. everything about him just makes my heart jump out of my chest.

"i'm just worried you may start to like someone else at some point." he says opening his eyes back up and i'm in shock. raegan beast is afraid of getting heart broken.

"well don't, because i won't. especially not kyle." i say smiling. i stretch my neck up so we are face to face. i connect our lips in a soft kiss and i can see my face turning pink. "i really love you, only you."

"good." he responds. "i only love you too."

i put my head on his chest, keeping my arm around his neck a little. my fingers tangled in his hair which i know he loves.

"goodnight." he says quietly. i smile to myself.

"goodnight rae."

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