Oneshots!

Something I Feel I Should Say.

I know this isnt a story, but I just get the feeling I should say this. Listen if you would like..

A lot of people think they have to hide their emotions, whether sadness, anger, or even happiness, in order to protect others from hurting. But the only think you will do is drag yourself down too. Being crushed by your burdens won't save someone else from theirs.

A lot of people confuse emotional stability and emotional suppressant. One allows you to feel pain, anger, sadness, joy, and even hate. But it doesn't consume you and rule over your life. The strength in it is that you can control which emotions you act on, and which ones you choose to be the ones that influence your life. That is emotional stability.

The other is where you push everything down so you don't feel it anymore or at least don't act on it. You bury it deep within yourself in order to protect yourself or someone else from that pain. But guess what, it'll come back to haunt you once it builds.

Sure it's great in the moment, you don't have to feel those pesky negative emotions, you're strong enough to push them back, right? Wrong. By pushing things down not only are you poisoning yourself with the sickening feeling it leaves behind, it- if I may be so blunt- is not a strength in any way shape or form. It's a bottle of poison wrapped in a pretty bow and coated in sugar to make it go down easier.

It will haunt you every day and dig its claws into you until you can't contain it anymore. This is how relationships are hurt, lives broken, and this, is how hearts build walls to surround them.

It tries to protect itself from anymore pain in the outside world, but what it doesn't realize, is that it's already being broken by the monster built up in that dark little place that you shoved deep down. I'm not trying to scare you, or make you suppress it further out of fear of this happening, I'm trying to warn you of the dangers that come with emotional suppressant.

A lot of people think it's a strength because the way our society builds it up, but it is a very very deadly poison that hides behind the pretty bottle it's kept in.

Emotional stability is something difficult to achieve, however it is possible for anyone, regardless of your circumstances.

You might be thinking "oh it won't won't for me, they don't know what they're talking about, they don't know MY situation." You're right, I don't. But you do. And nomatter how many medications, therapists, or loved ones who are there for you you have, the only one who can start the change is you.

The others however can help, so please, if you decide to make that decision to stop the anger poisoning your heart, don't do it alone. You may be the only one who can make the choice, but that doesn't mean you have to take the journey alone.

Fear, anger, and pain poisoned my heart for years. I changed into someone I didn't want to be because of it. So I made that choice and found people to help me do it.

If you don't have that, know that you have me. I've been through it before, and I can help to the best of my ability to help you get through it too. I don't know how many people will read this, and if you do, I don't want your pity, or attention. That's not why I'm doing this. I'm doing it because the part of me that I let grow, the part that loves myself and others, felt that I needed to.

So I listened.