SaVe Me Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Ninety-Seven 아흔칠

I come back to the cabin and close the door behind me. I take the leash off Yeontan and take off my shoes. When I look around in the house, I don't see Taehyung anywhere. I assume he is outside practicing again, but then I hear the sounds of a piano coming from one of the rooms. I follow the sound of the music and see the door of the room is open.

Taehyung sits behind the piano and plays a song. It takes me a second to realise what song he is playing: Butterfly by BTS. His soft voice sings along to the song. Even though most of the words are in Korean, I know what the song is about. It is about the fear of losing someone...

I lean against the wall and listen to his beautiful voice, the amazing piano and this amazing song. It has always been one of my favorites, but I feel sad hearing it. I know why he plays that song right now. After the fight we just had, he is scared to lose me. Is that how he really feels? Is playing this song a way to feel understood? Or is he playing this song to let me know how he feels? Maybe all of the above.

When he finishes the song, he stays quiet for a second. Does he know I am here? He never turned around and he didn't stop playing. But then he starts to speak. "Are you just going to stand there in silent?" He asks me without turning around to me. I roll my eyes even though he can't see me. So he actually knew I was here. I bet that is why he played that specific song.

"It depends, are you singing the words you should actually say to me?" I ask him. But once the words leave my mouth and I see him freeze, I realise how harsh these words were. He didn't do anything wrong, but I guess there is still some anger inside of me. I actually hoped my little walk would let all my anger go away.

"Sorry, that was too harsh..." I apologize. Taehyung keeps his back towards me and lets his fingers softly touch the keys of the piano. "You were not wrong..." he softly admits. He moves his hands away from the piano and finally turns around to me. I scare when I see his red eyes. Did he cry?

"I am glad you came back," he says. Hearing his soft voice, I notice how vulnerable he is. He completely let his guard down. He doesn't look like the badass who was mad at me a while ago. He looks like a lost and scared puppy. It makes my heart ache to see him this way.

I decide not to say anything about his looks or his eyes. I walk closer to him and smile a little. "I said I would come back to you," I tell him. Taehyung looks at me and smiles a little as well, but it doesn't look genuine. "Yeah, but still. I wouldn't blame you if you didn't... I messed up..." He says. I hear his voice break. It feels like my heart breaks along with it. I stand right in front of him, but he looks down to hide his feelings.

I put my hand underneath his chin and move his face to make him look at me. I feel my heart ache even more when I see tears in his eyes. "I would never walk away from you like that," I assure him. Taehyung takes a deep breath, but it doesn't look like my words have comforted him. Even though I was mad at him, I feel so so bad for him. I feel bad for what I did and that I made everything even harder for him. During our fight, he said how hard everything is for him. I never realized he felt that way... And I didn't make it easier for him...

"Can I please hug you?" I ask him. I feel tears burning in my eyes, but I really don't want to cry. I want to talk it out and make things right. The sooner the better. But I also want to support him. I want to take his worry and his struggles away.

Taehyung smiles and wraps his arms around me. He pulls me on his lap and hugs me. I wrap my arms around him as well and hold him tight. I let my head rest against his shoulder and close my eyes. I listen to his soft heartbeat and his breathing. I missed this. I missed feeling so safe and at home in his arms. It feels like it has been ages since we hugged like this.

"I am sorry for what I said," I tell him. Taehyung puts a soft kiss on my head before he looks at me again. "No, you were right," he says, "I do practice too much. I promised you a trip and spending a lot of time together. I am sorry that I let you down." I shake my head, "I get it. You want to or have to practice a lot. There is so much pressure on you. You want or need to get everything perfectly. To get there you have to practice a lot. I am sorry that I didn't see that sooner."

Taehyung smiles a little as he looks at me. "Yeah, well all these practices could wait till after our trip," he says, "besides, perfection is an image in my head that is not realistic." I smile at his words. I am glad he knows my point of view and I am glad he sees it like that as well. "I get it, you want everything to be perfect and to be the best version of yourself, especially for your fans," I tell him, "I should be the one to support you, not the one who makes it even harder for you."

Taehyung smiles at my words. "You do support me. You do know that right? You support me in every way and I am very thankful for you," he says and puts a small kiss on my head. I smile and feel my cheeks blush. "Thank you. I am glad I can support you. But I was not supportive at all today," I tell him. He brings his hand to my face and caresses my cheek with his thumb. "Maybe not, but you opened my eyes. I was working way too much while this is actually supposed to be a holiday," he says.

I smile wide and lean my head against his hand. "Next time I will just tell you instead of causing a fight," I joke. He laughs and nods, "Me too!" For a moment we stay silent. We both look at each other and enjoy each others touch and each others company.

"Why don't I cook for you today?" Taehyung suggests after a few minutes of silence. I smile wide. "Are you sure? You can still practice if you want to," I tell him. He shakes his head. "No, I think I have practiced enough for this week. I wanna cook for my girlfriend," he says. I feel my cheeks blush and nod. "Okay! Let me help you!" I tell him. But he shakes his head, "No, it is my turn to cook. You can just relax."

"Maybe I should practice some dance routines instead," I joke as we both stand up. Taehyung laughs, "You should! But please do that in the kitchen, so I can watch." I laugh and roll my eyes. "No, you should focus on your cooking," I tease him. "I can do two things at once, you know!" He winks. 

...

The rest of the day, we spent together. Taehyung wanted to cook by himself, but I ended up helping him. We ended up eating our food on the couch while we watched an episode of a K-drama. Since we were both really tired, we went to bed early.

But when I wake up in the middle of the night, Taehyung is not laying next to me. I sit up straight and look around in the bedroom. His side of the bed is empty. It looks like he layed there, but not anymore, obviously.

When I get out of bed to find him, I hear the sound of the piano. Is he playing the piano right now? In the middle of the night? I walk into the room and see him sitting behind the piano. He has a piece of paper and a pen next to him. Is he writing a song?

When I come closer to him, he turns around to me. "Hey, did I wake you?" He asks a little worried. I smile and put my hand on his shoulder. "No you didn't," I tell him. I look at the piece of paper. Just like I thought, he is writing a song. "What are you writing?" I ask him. He puts his arm around my hips as he looks at the same piece of paper. "I couldn't sleep and I had this idea for a song," he explains. I smile and see all the lyrics are in Korean, except for a few words. 'I could make it better. I could hold you tighter.'

I feel a little worried and look at him. "W-what kind of song is it?" I ask him. Taehyung sighs and holds me closer to him. "Let's just say it is about the fear of losing someone you love," he says. I feel my heart break. I put both my hands on his face to cup his cheeks. His beautiful dark eyes look into mine.

"Babe, you know you're never losing me, right?" I ask him. Taehyung smiles a little and wraps his arms around me. He pulls me on his lap and holds me close to him. "I know, baby," he says, "This is just how I felt during our fight today. So I thought maybe I could make a song out of it." I smile and put a small kiss on his nose. "That's a great idea, babe," I tell him, "As long as you know I am right here and I am not leaving you." Taehyung smiles and puts a kiss on my cheek. "I know," he smiles.

"Good. Well I will let you work then," I say and am about to stand up, but Taehyung keeps his arms around me and keeps me on his lap. "No, you can stay," He says. I laugh a little, "Don't you wanna finish your song?" Taehyung smiles, "I do. But you don't have to leave for me to do that." I laugh and lean against his chest. "Are you sure you can work like this?" I ask him.

"Of course! Watch!" He says. To prove his point, he puts his hands on the keyboard and he starts to play a song. I recognize it immediately, Hold Me Tight from BTS. I smile and close my eyes as I listen to the sound of the piano playing that song. Softly, Taehyung starts to sing along, creating my own personal heaven.

As I listen to his playing, his voice and this amazing song, while I hold him close to me, I slowly drift off to sleep on his lap.