SaVe Me Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Fifty-Eight 오십팔

I sit on the sofa and watch some dumb action movie. The storyline is trash and really predictable, but I watch it anyway. Everything to keep me distracted. I convinced Yana to go back to work. She stayed home to take care of me, but I told her to go back to work before she gets fired as well.

In return, I had to promise her I'd take a moment to look for a new job. I am not even near the right mood to go back to work somewhere else, but I know I have to. Staying at home all day just gives me the opportunity to think of Taehyung, so maybe going back to work isn't that bad.

While I half watch this insane movie, I also look at some job offers. Not all of them are as bad as I thought. Some are actually pretty good! Luckily, Yana and I updated my resume, so with one single click, I apply to a few job offers. Since my job at The Triangle really sucked, I try my best to find a job I'll actually like and gives me a chance at finding happiness. So I don't apply to any job, but just a few I would actually like.

As I try to focus on the movie again, I see a text from my mom on my phone. 

Mom: Hey Alyssa, we just had your grandma's funeral. It was really pretty and we were able to record some parts of it for you to watch if you'd like.

I sigh deeply. Today was my grandma's funeral... And I wasn't able to join... I wasn't able to be there with my family and give my grandma a proper goodbye...

Then something comes to my mind. Taehyung doesn't know my grandma passed away yet... I mean, how could he? We are not supposed to have contact. The only way I could let him know, is by telling Kaylee... I mean, that is the best way, but that would suck, wouldn't it? I don't want Kaylee to let him know my grandma died. I know he cared for her as well and she cared for him.

I stare at my phone. I would do anything to be able to talk to him and tell him myself. But can I? I mean, I still have his number... But would he answer? I suppose he would, but I don't think he is allowed to... I am not even supposed to call him in the first place. Maybe I should just send him a text? No, I can't do that. I can't just send him a text saying that my grandma passed away! You don't tell someone that by text.

Before I can overthink it, I grab my phone and call Taehyung. I know we're not supposed to have contact, but this is about my grandma. I just want to let him know my grandma passed away, that's all. Plus, it would be amazing to hear his voice again...

My phone rings ones and twice... Probably he won't answer me. Maybe he had to block my number on his phone or maybe he has a new phone. Or he doesn't, but he is just not allowed to answer me...

My phone rings again and again. I hold my breath as I hear a click. "Kim Taehyung," His voice says. I freeze completely by the sound of his voice. Even though I felt like I had a lot to say to him, I can't seem to find any words. But then I hear a female Korean voice. I let out the air I was holding. It is just his voice mail... When I hear a beep, I start to panic. Do I tell his voicemail hoping he would listen to it? But what if he can't? I take a deep breath and decide to give it a try.

"Hey, Taehyung, it's me..." I say, "I know I am not supposed to call you... But I really needed to tell you something..." I try to find the words to say, but I really can't think straight. His voice, saying these two simple words, threw me off guard. I lost everything I wanted to say. I decide to let my heart speak for itself.

"First of all, I hope you're doing okay," I say, "I hope the guys support you as much as they can. I hope you are able to move on and let go from us..." I feel tears burning in my eyes. As I realise what I'm saying, I laugh softly. "I guess me calling you and talking to your voicemail doesn't help you with that, I'm sorry," I softly laugh. But then I turn serious again. I need to tell him what I wanted to tell him before I spend an hour talking to his voicemail.