SaVe Me Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Sixty-One 육십일

After a long day I finally get home. I close the front door behind me and put my bag on the ground. I sigh deeply and go into the kitchen. Today was a busy day, like the past week.

I'm only halfway through my second week at my new job. Don't get me wrong, I love it. I get to take photos of the most beautiful nature in the area. I get to edit the photos myself. Some photos end up in the magazine and some won't. If a photo is really, really good, it even gets printed as poster or put on the front page of the magazine.

But it is a lot of work. Looking at the fact I did literally nothing for the past two months, I have a really hard time to get back into the working-life. Getting out of bed early in the morning wasn't my routine, but it is now. How did I do this before? How did I survive? Right, because I had Taehyung...

One of the positive things about my new job is the distraction. When I'm at work, I don't have time to think of Taehyung or any of the BTS members. I just do my job and before I know it, the day is over and I get to go home. But once I get home, I listen to their music and think about them for every single second.

But I'm doing better. I haven't cried in a few days and I am able to listen to their music - even Let Go - without crying. Before, their music made me really sad but also comforted me. But now, their music supports me.

As I go into the kitchen, I see Yana. She looks at her phone and clearly doesn't notice me. "Hey," I say. Yana scares and looks at me. "Ali, hey! Sorry I was distracted," Yana laughs, "How was work?" I smile, "It was good." Yana smiles proudly, "I'm glad!"

She looks back at her phone and I see her mood change. She looks really serious and focused, like she is on a mission. As I make some tea for myself, I laugh. "Care to share what's distracting you?" I ask her.

Yana looks at me. "In a few minutes, BTS has their first show of the fan meeting in Japan," Yana says, "Someone in the audience might live stream the entire show." I take a sip of my tea. "Really?" I ask. "Yes, but I'm trying to find a way to see the stream," she says.

Then she stays quiet and looks at me. "I'm sorry, you probably don't want to hear any of this," she says. I smile, "I do, actually. I would love to see them perform again. I'm still an ARMY, you know?" Yana smiles, "Great! Do you want to watch it on the TV?" I nod, "Yes! Let's do that!" "Awesome! The stream will start in a few minutes and I just found the link. I will get everything ready!" Yana says and runs into the living room.

As the silence takes over in the kitchen, I take a deep breath. BTS will perform again in a few minutes... How do I feel about that? I mean, yes, I want to see them perform, I really do. But something stops me from being excited. I know exactly what it is. It's fear.

How will Taehyung act? Will he be his happy self? I really hope so... I know how the ARMY always makes him happy. I really hope he can be his happy self again. Even though Kaylee told me he is struggling a lot, I hope the ARMY gives him enough love to make him happy again. I really hope this is what he needs. That he just needs to be around the ARMY again and everything will be okay.

But I'm also scared for myself. How will I react when I see him perform again? Will it bring back memories from their rehearsals? Will I be able to hold it together as I see them perform while I could be there with them. If my dad never exposed us, I would be right there with them... Will it hurt as I see what my life could've looked like?

"Ali! It's starting!" Yana shouts from the living room. I take one big breath and go into the living room. Yana put the live stream on the TV. The concert starts and the guys appear on the stage. The whole crowd starts to scream as the guys start to sing. The fan who's livestreaming the concert, stands close to the stage, so we can see the guys really well.