SaVe Me Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Fifty-Six 오십육

I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling, listening to the music that comes from my phone. I can't stop listening to music. I need a sound, a noise or any kind of distraction around me. As soon as it is silent, my head goes to Taehyung. I start to think about him. How he is doing, where he might be or what he might be doing. Just thinking about him, makes me cry. More than anything, I want to be with him and hug him. Just feeling his arms around me one more time...

It's been four days since I've last seen him. Four days since I lost my dream job, my friends and the love of my life... These four days have been the worst days of my life. I thought my life with a job at the Triangle was bad... Little did I know!

The last four days, I've spend like this. Just laying in bed, staring at the ceiling or out the window, listening to music. I don't think I've ever spend more time listening to music as I did these last four days. But I don't see any other way to deal with my broken heart. Only the sad voices, lyrics and melody of these songs, remind me that I'm not alone. 

A soft knock makes me look away from my ceiling for the first time in a few hours. My bedroom door opens and Yana walks in. She takes a seat on my bed next to me. I sit up and turn the volume of my music down. I don't turn it off, just because I am afraid of the silence. Because with silence, come my thoughts. And with my thoughts, comes every single memory of Taehyung. And with that comes tears. A lot of them.

"How did you sleep?" Yana asks me. I sigh and look at my hands, folded on my lap. "Three hours max..." I tell her. Yana sighs and puts her arm around my shoulders. "Why don't we watch a movie today?" She suggests. I try to smile. Yana is kind enough to stay home all day and take care of me. We've watched different movies and series over the last few days, just to distract me. 

"Sure," I tell her. Every form of distraction is welcome, as long at it has nothing to do with BTS or romance. Yana smiles, "Great. I will start making breakfast. Any requests?" I shake my head, "Anything is fine." Yana nods, I know she tries to stay positive and happy to cheer my up, but it's not easy for her. I am in no mood to smile or even feel a little positive.

"Why don't you get dressed and I'll see you in the kitchen in a few minutes?" She suggests. I nod, "Okay." Yana gives me a hug and leaves my room again. I turn the volume of my music up and get out of my bed. As I try to find some clothes to wear today, I see Taehyung's hoodie in my closet. I would love to wear it every single day, but I can't. I know it will only make it worse.

So I decide to put on some skinny jeans and a black sweater. As I look in the mirror and decide whether to take the time to do something with my hair or not, I hear the sound of a guitar coming from my phone. I recognize the song within two seconds and run to my phone. I quickly skip to the next song. I really, really can't listen to I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz... It will only bring me back to Sophie's wedding, where Taehyung and I danced to this song... Just thinking about it makes me want to curl up and cry.

As the next song starts to play, I see a text from Kaylee.

Kaylee: Hey Ali! How are you? We just had our first rehearsal here in Korea. We all really miss you <3

I sigh deeply. Even though I am not allowed to have contact with any of the BTS members, I am allowed to have contact with Kaylee. It feels really hard to read what she is doing and to hear her talk about BTS, but it also calms me. Just knowing what they're doing and what they're up to, relaxes me. It still kind of feels like I am there with them.

As I read the text again, I feel tears in my eyes. I was supposed to be with them in Korea right now... I could have met Taehyung's parents by now. But no... I am here, in my bedroom, crying because I am not where I want to be.