SaVe Me Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Fifty-Nine 오십구

It's been almost two months since Taehyung and I broke up. Slowly, I start to get my life back. Well, not actually back since I won't be able to go back to my life before the breakup. But I've started to build a new life for myself.

Even though I've spent most of my days in my bed for weeks, I am proud to say I can almost function like a normal human being. After applying for a few jobs, I got invited for an interview for three jobs. This gave me a good reason to get out of bed in the morning, take a shower, take care of myself and get out of the house.

Yana and Kaylee have both been very helpful for me. Yana motivated me every single day. She talked to me and listened when I needed someone. Without her, I would probably still be in bed all day, listening to sad music, holding Taehyung's hoodie and crying twenty-four-seven.

Kaylee also helped me a lot. Even though she is all the way in Korea, she helped me get through it. She gave me updates on the guys, what made me feel like I was still connected to them. She told me everything I wanted to know about Taehyung or the other guys. Just reading how Taehyung was doing, really got me through it. Of course, it made me sad to hear when he wasn't doing well, but I was glad to hear something about him. Being cut off completely, would really ruin me. If I wasn't able to hear from them through Kaylee, I wouldn't be able to be where I am now.

I unlock my car and open the door. I get in and close the door behind me. I sigh deeply as I feel the silence around me. I just had my third job interview. I really need to get a job. I need a stable life with a reason to get out of bed every morning, also known as a job.

I start my car and am immediately surrounded by the beautiful voices and music of BTS. Yes, I still listen to them. I mean, once you JimIN you can't JimOUT, right? I am still an ARMY and I always will be. Even though hearing their voices - especially Taehyung's - makes me sad and miss them even more, their music makes me happy. Just like it always did. There are a few songs I really can't listen to without crying - like the sad songs - so I try to keep these songs far away from me... For now.

But today a new album got released. It's called Face Yourself and is a Japanese album. But there are a few new songs on there as well. I haven't listened to it yet, but I will when I get home!

As I arrive at home, I park my car and go inside the house. Yana and Jim sit on the sofa and watch a TV show. They both look up when I enter the room. "Hey! How did it go?" Yana asks me right away. I smile and take a seat on the sofa. "It went great! The conversation was good and I felt like we had a click," I tell her. "That's amazing!" Yana says, "When will they let you know if you got the job?" "Tomorrow," I say. "That's really fast!" Jim says, "But the interview was comfortable?". "Yes, we even had a laugh together," I smile. "That's a really good sign," Jim says.

I smile at him. Jim and I really get along pretty well. We got to meet properly and got to know each other. He seems like a great guy. Above all, he makes Yana really happy. That's the most important thing for me.

"Yes, I feel like it is," I say. "What was this for, again?" Yana asks. "It's for a nature magazine. I get to be their photographer," I explain. "That's cool!" Jim says. I smile, "yes, I really hope I get the job. I take photos of nature ever since I first got a camera!" Yana smiles as well, "I really hope you'll get it!"

"Before I forget, there's a package for you," Yana says. She stands up and goes into the kitchen. She comes back holding a package which is as big as a box for shoes. She hands me the package and takes a seat next to Jim again. "I wasn't expecting anything..." I say as I look at the package. Yana looks a little careful. "It's from Korea..." She says.

My nerves take over immediately. A package from Korea... I look at Yana. "Do you think it's from them?" I ask her. "Well, there's only one way to find out," Yana says. I nod and take a deep breath. Am I really nervous to open a package? Well, clearly I am!

I open the package and look inside. I feel confused when I see two Face Yourself albums. Yana looks at me as I take the albums out of the package. "Wait, I didn't know you ordered it!" Yana says with a huge smile. I feel confused, "I didn't... Did you?" Yana shakes her head, "No, I didn't."

I look inside the package again and find a small note.

Hey Alyssa,
Because I can't support you face to face, I got you the new album Face Yourself by the guys.
I hope you're feeling better soon and be able to move on! <3
I got one for Yana as well, to thank her for supporting you :)
Stay strong! I miss you very much <3
X Kaylee
PS. I also got the guys to sign them for you! You're welcome XD

My jaw drops. I put the note down and look at the albums. Like Kaylee wrote, they are both signed. I feel tears burning in my eyes as I look at the note again. This is so incredibly sweet of her! Even though the album is in Japanese, it is great to own the new BTS album.

I give Yana an album. "It's from Kaylee for both of us," I tell her. Yana smiles wide, "That's so sweet! And it's signed as well!" We both immediately unwrap the albums from the plastic and open them. Wow, it's a really beautiful album! The purple, blue and pink colours look amazing!

After Yana and I both took a moment to look at the album and everything that came with it, we put the albums in our rooms, for safekeeping. As we take a seat on the sofa, Yana looks at me. "Did you listen to any of the new songs yet?" She asks me. I shake my head, "No, not yet. Have you?" Yana nods, "Yes, they are amazing, obviously."

I smile, "Of course they are!" Then Yana looks a little worried, "There is one song I think you really need to hear..." I feel my heartbeat speeding up. "W-What do you mean? I will listen to all of the new songs," I tell her. "Yes, but there is one in particular..." She says. She opens Spotify on her phone and looks at me. "Can I play it for you?" She asks. I nod and feel the nerves racing through my veins.

Yana presses play, "It's called Let Go." The music starts to play and I hear the guys sing and rap. It sounds beautiful and their voices are incredible, like always! The music is also really catchy. Most of the lyrics are Japanese, but some words are English. But I still have no idea what they're singing. When Taehyung starts to sing, I feel a big smile appear on my face. His voice sounds amazing! They sing 'I'm ready to let go' what makes me think it's a song about moving on. But when I look at Yana's sad face, I start to believe otherwise.

When the song ends, Yana looks at me. "It's a good song," I tell her, "I-Is it from Taehyung?" Yana nods, "I believe he worked on this song..." I still don't know why she looks so worried. "It's a great song. It sounds like he found a way to move on and let go," I tell her, but Yana shakes her head. "It's not... I searched for the English lyrics," she says and shows me her phone. I start to read the lyrics. A few sentences really stand out...

We can't return to those days... If I could, I'd call your name... Hard to say goodbye, but I can't run... Beyond the tears hidden in the rain, I'll wait for you... The scent of the path we walked together, don't forget them...

As I read more and more lyrics, I feel tears burning in my eyes. Yes, the song is about letting someone go, but not in the way I thought. Yes, they sing they're ready to let go, but it feels forced. It feels like they are supposed to say that they're ready to let go, but they're not...

Tears roll down my face. Taehyung wrote this... This is what it feels like to him... He had to let me go, but he couldn't... But he didn't have a choice... As I read the lyrics again and again, I feel his pain. It's almost like I can look over his shoulder as he writes down the lyrics. In my mind I try to grab his hand or hug him or just touch him. I try to let him know that I will always be with him and that I'll always love him and wait for him. But I can't reach him. I can't let him know that I feel the same and that I know what he's going through. I want to tell him to stay strong and to tell him that he'll get through this. But I can't. I can't reach him...