SaVe Me Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Sixty-Seven 육십칠

Yana parks the car in front of the house, but we both don't get out right away. Yana looks at me and looks worried. "Are you okay?" She asks me. I take a deep breath. This entire car ride I haven't said a single word. This day has been a freaking rollercoaster. What started with a big smile, ended in a lot of tears.

I had the most amazing time seeing the guys again and singing and dancing along to their amazing songs. It was an absolute pleasure to be in that room with a lot of other ARMY's. It almost felt like a family. In the past six months I haven't felt happier than I felt today, being in that room, seeing Taehyung again and to have fun with him.

Yes, the night ended horrible with me having a mental breakdown. I knew it would be hard to say goodbye again, but I didn't know I would react this way... I didn't know it would be this hard to let him go all over again... The feeling of not knowing when I will see him again, is killing me.

That's why I need to hold on to the happiness I felt during the concert. I need to hold on to the sight of his beautiful smile. I didn't take much photos during the concert, but his looks will be tattooed in my brain forever. Yes, Taehyung basically told me he still loves me and he hasn't moved on yet, just like me. But I just need to learn to live with that. To live with the fact that I love him and he loves me, but there is nothing we can do about it.

I look at Yana and smile as much as I can. "Yes, I'm okay," I tell her. She doesn't look convinced. "Are you sure?" She asks me, "It looked like you weren't doing well..." I nod, "Yes, I know. The goodbye was really hard on me. But I had the most amazing time tonight and I need to hold on to that." Yana nods and smiles weakly. "It was really amazing," She says. I nod and smile wide, "Yes, it was."

We both get out of the car and go inside. We both decide to go straight to bed, since it is already past midnight. Yana wraps her arms around me and hugs me tight. "I know life is hard on you, so if you need anything, all you have to do is ask," she tells me. I smile and hug her back. "Thank you. I don't know what I would've done without you," I tell her.

We let go of each other and smile. "I love you. Goodnight," Yana says. "I love you too! Goodnight," I tell her and go into my bedroom. I close the door behind me and put my pajamas on. I get in bed and stare at the ceiling. I won't give up on us... These were the last words he said to me. Even though I didn't hear him say it, I can imagine how his voice sounded.

As I close my eyes I let my brain go back to the past few hours. I try to hear his beautiful, deep voice again. I try to focus on his smile and his moves. I also can't help but think back to the incredible performance of The Truth Untold. Even though I cried through the entire song, their performance was incredible. A small tear escapes from my eye as I see him, standing there, with tears all over his face. I can almost feel his eyes on me as he sings his heart out to this amazing song. With a smile and a tear I slowly drift off to sleep.

I stand in a big room. It is completely empty. The room is filled with fog. The fog forms a big, grey wall around me, but stays like twenty feet away from me. I am the only one here. Where is everyone? But most importantly: where am I?

"Hi Ali," a soft voice scares me. I turn around and see two beautiful eyes with blue contacts look at me. I immediately feel calm and a smile forms at my face. "Tae..." I say. He stands a few meters away from me. He wears the outfit he also wore when he sang The Truth Untold to me. His hair is perfectly styled and falls over his forehead. His lips are beautifully red and shine a little. His eyes scan my body and I see a big smile appear on his face.

"I've missed you so much," I tell him. I want to run to him, but I can't. My body won't move. I look down and try to move my foot, but it looks like it is glued to the floor.

I look back to Taehyung. His smile is nowhere to be found and he looks worried. "Ali?" he asks. "Tae, I can't move!" I tell him. I start to panic. Why can't I move? I want to run to Taehyung! I want to wrap my arms around him and hold him! Why can't I move?!

I try again and again, but I can't get my feet off the floor. I can't run. All I can do is stand here while he stands right there. So close, but yet so far away...

I look at Taehyung again. "Tae, help me," I beg him. But Taehyung doesn't move. He just stands there and stares at me. I scare when I see a tear roll down his face. "I'm sorry..." He says. Fear races through my veins. Why does he say sorry? Why is he crying?

"Tae, please!" I beg him. Tears roll down my face. Why can't he help me?! "Tae!" I shout. "I am so sorry..." He says. More and more tears roll down his face. Then the grey wall comes closer to Taehyung. It slowly surrounds him.

"Tae! No! Stay with me!" I shout. He keeps staring at me as he slowly disappears in the grey fog. "NO!" I shout when he completely disappears. "TAEHYUNG!" I shout. The tears roll down my face like someone didn't close the tap. "DON'T LEAVE ME!" I shout, but my voice fades away, just like Taehyung did.

I scare and wake up from my horrible nightmare. I sit up straight in my bed in my dark room. The tears roll down my face. My entire body is wet of sweat and my hands shake. I look around in my room, still feeling the urge to find Taehyung.

"Taehyung?" I ask. I look next to me, but I am the only one here. Where is he?! Why isn't he here, next to me?! But then I start to realize what happened. The dream might not have been real, but he did really disappear from my life... But it wasn't the fog what took him, it was his management...

My door slams open and Yana runs into my bedroom. "Ali! Are you okay? I heard you scream!" Yana says. She runs towards me and looks around in my room. "I... I'm sorry..." I tell her. I start to sob and put my hands on my face. Yana sits on my bed next to me and wraps her arms around me. "A nightmare?" She asks me. I nod, "About him..." Yana's head rests against mine and she quietly shushes me.

"It was just a dream... It's okay," she says. I shake my head, "He is still gone..." Yana stays quiet. I get it, I also wouldn't know what to tell me. I dreamed about Taehyung being taken away from me. Even though it was completely different, it still felt the same as it happened in real life.

As I stop crying, I let go of Yana. I wipe the tears off my face and look at her. "Thank you," I tell her. I scare when I see tears in her eyes. "I wish I could do more..." She says. I smile weakly, "Me too..." Yana puts her hand on my shoulder. "Are you okay to sleep again?" She asks. I nod and smile. She reminds me of a worried mom. "Yes, I am," I assure her.

Yana hugs me one more time and stands up. "I'm right here," she says. I nod and lay down again. "Thank you," I tell her as she leaves me room. She smiles at me and closes the door behind her. I try to fall asleep again, but I can't. I am way too scared to relive that same dream again. I can't have him disappear like that again.

I get out of my bed. There is one way I know to let myself believe that he is right here with me... I go to my closet and grab his old hoodie. Even though I might had to, I just couldn't throw it out. After all this time, this hoodie still holds his scent. I know it might be insane, but I love to smell his scent again.

With the hoodie in my hands, I go back to bed. I hold the hoodie in my arms and close my eyes. The smell of Taehyung's old scent fills my nose and finally I feel calm again. As I imagine that he lays right here next to me, I fall asleep again.