SaVe Me Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Twenty-Four 이십사

Taehyung and I let go of each other and I follow him to the seats of the cinema. We take a seat in the seats in the middle of the room. We have great sight on the big screen.

"Look, if you press this button, you can lay down," Taehyung says. I press said button and feel my chair go a little more flat, so I can lay down. I smile wide and put it all the way down. Taehyung laughs and follows my lead. We lay down like it's one big bed. Taehyung even removes the armrests in between us, like he removes a barrier. I smile wide and scoot a little closer to him.

"Now we need to pick a movie," Taehyung says. He grabs his phone and I see how he opens an app I have never seen before. "This is connected to the big screen. It has a lot of movies and series on it," He explains. Taehyung smiles wide, "I will grab some drinks and snacks for us!" He hands me his phone, "Here, you pick a movie." "Are you sure?" I ask him. Taehyung laughs, "Please nothing too girly!" I laugh, "I won't! I promise!" He stands up and laughs. "I'll be right back!" He says and leaves the room.

I scroll through all the different movies on the app. My eye falls on the movie The Maze Runner. It's an amazing movie, which I have seen at least four times. I wonder if Taehyung would like it... But I think he would! I press the movie and see I can project it on the big screen. Once I press that button, the movie starts to play on the big screen. I scare and pauze it quickly. 

When I am about to put his phone down, I notice he got a few notifications from Twitter. I suppose he gets a lot of these in a day... For a split second it crosses my mind to take a look, but I can't do that. I really, really can't. I put his phone on his chair and wait patiently for him to come back. 

After a few minutes, the door opens and Taehyung walks into the room again. His hands are filled with bags of chips, a bottle of cola and two glasses. "Do you need some help?" I ask him. "No thanks," he says. He puts everything down on the floor. "One thing we do need in this room, is a table," he jokes, but something sounds off...

He looks up to me and I immediately notice he looks... kind of sad? He pretends to smile, but it doesn't look real. I reach out and grab his hand. "Hey, are you okay?" I ask him. He looks away from me and sighs. "Well... Not really..." He says. I feel confused. There was nothing wrong with him when he left this room, was there? Did I just not notice it? I thought he was happy a few minutes ago?

I stand up from my chair and put my hand on his cheek. I turn his head so he looks at me. I scare a little when I see hints of tears in his eyes. "What's wrong?" I ask him. He sighs again, "There is something we need to talk about..."

I scare. Oh no... Something is wrong, something is really, really wrong! What could it be? Is it something I said or maybe something I did? Maybe he didn't like my love-confession for him? Or maybe he didn't like his own? Wait... He does love me, right? Or did he lie to me? But why would he lie about it? And why would he be sad about that now? Or, did he not like the fact that I tried to get tickets for his tour? Maybe he doesn't want me to come? Or maybe he didn't like the fact that I couldn't come to his practice when he asked me to?

In my head, I completely freak out. I have no idea what he wants to talk about and what made him so sad. It has to do something with me... But what? 

"W-what's wrong?" I ask him. My voice is shaking, just like the rest of my body. My hands are sweaty and I can't think straight.

Taehyung sits down on his chair and I sit down next to him. He grabs both my hands and stares at them, to avoid my eyes I assume. "I don't know how to tell you this..." he says. He looks really shy and insecure right now... It's a look I don't see a lot and definitely don't want to see more often.

"You can talk to me about anything," I assure him, "Don't be afraid." Taehyung looks at me and I scare once again when I see actual tears in his eyes. "But I am afraid..." He says. "I don't wanna lose you..." He adds in a whisper. I still have no idea what is going on, but I hold his hands a little tighter and scoot a little bit closer to him. "Tell me what's on your mind," I practically beg him. I know this might be hard for him, but this silence is driving me crazy!

"I am not allowed to have a girlfriend..." Taehyung says. He looks at me and waits for my reaction. I scare again and start to freak out even more. He isn't allowed to have a girlfriend? What? Why is he telling me this now? I mean, we weren't completely serious until now, but why did we go on these dates if he knew he wasn't allowed to have a girlfriend?

"Oh..." I say. I have no idea what to say. I also have no idea what this means. Does he want to end things with me right now? Right after we told each other 'I love you' for the first time?

"When we first got our contract as BTS a few years ago, it was included that we could not have a girlfriend... I think it was about the fact that they were scared that we would have a lot of short relationships that would ruin our good image," He explains. 

"S-So now what?" I ask. I can't control my voice and I can't stop stuttering. Taehyung looks at me. "What I am about to ask you, is the most insane thing I have ever asked anyone before..." He says, "But how do you feel about keeping it all hidden for everyone?" It takes a moment for me to realize what he is saying. Does he want to keep our relationship a secret?

"Let me get this straight," I say, "You don't want to break up, but you want to continue in secret? So nobody is allowed to know?" Taehyung nods, "Yes, but this includes lying to my management about it. Because if we do this, nobody of my team can know..." "Including the other boys?" I ask. Taehyung smiles weakly, "No, they can know. They will keep our secret."

I take a moment to think about it. I mean, I already feel like I want to do this, but is it realistic? Because this means that I can not share a single detail to anyone! Well, except for Yana, I hope.

"I know it's a lot to ask, because this means that the ARMY, the paparazzi, my crew, security, choreographer and everybody else except us can't know. So we have to pretend we're just friends around them and in public..." He explains. He wants us to lie to everyone? Even the ARMY?

"Are you sure about it?" I ask him. Taehyung nods, "It may sound insane, but if this is the only way to be able to be with you, I want to try." The butterflies in my belly wake up again and start to do their jobs. He wants to do this for me... For us...

"But only if you agree," He says. I look at him. "Yana can know?" I ask him to check. Taehyung nods, "Yana can know, of course." He looks really scared and insecure. I smile wide, "Then I'm in!" Taehyung smiles wide and the happiness returns to his face. "Really?" He asks. I laugh, "Of course! I love you, Tae! If this is the only way I can be with you, then what are we waiting for? I am incredibly glad there is a way!"

Taehyung laughs and hugs me tight. "I am so glad you're saying this!" He says, "I wasn't ready to let you go already!" I laugh and let go of him. "You won't be able to get rid of me that easily!" I joke. Taehyung laughs and sighs relieved.

"I'm glad," He smiles. He puts his hands on my cheeks and kisses my lips. "I love you," he tells me. "I love you too!" I tell him. Taehyung hugs me again. "Now, let's watch the movie!" He smiles wide and we both take a seat again. Taehyung gives me a glass of cola and pours one for himself as well. "I couldn't find a nice blanked, but I did bring a sweater, if you want one. It's not really hot here," He says, holding a black sweater. I smile wide, "I would love one!" Taehyung smiles and hands me the sweater.

I put it on over my other clothes. It is a little big, but it feels amazing! When I move the fabric to my face and smell at it, I notice a sweet scent. This must be his own sweater... It smells just like him... A wide smile appears on my face and I feel even more happy wearing it.

We both lay down in our seats and Taehyung starts the movie. Immediately he moves his arm around me. I smile wide and with butterflies in my belly, I scoot closer and wrap my arms around him as well. I lay my head on his chest and watch the movie.

It feels insane. A week ago we were crushing on each other, both wanting to be together, but neither of us did anything yet. Now here we are, saying that we love each other and making plans to continue this young relationship even though we aren't allowed to. It seems like a huge difference within a few days, but it feels right. Being here with Taehyung, laying in his arms, knowing that we have to hide our relationship for the world. Even though, it sounds massive and insane, it also gives me some kind of rush. It feels really excited to know something nobody else is allowed to know. I know this kind of rush won't stay the entire time and I know there will be hard times. But I feel like we can handle that, as long as we stay together.