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Vanilla tears

Victor opened his own apartment door, really hoping that Eddy had gone home now. He had gone out after a bit when the happy couple invaded his living room again. He hated seeing them together, and the way Alex had laughed and smiled the night before had made him feel weird so he didn't want to experience any more of that.

Alex didn't seem to be laughing or smiling anymore, though, as Victor kicked his shoes off and walked inside. Instead, he seemed to just lay on the floor with a sad expression on his face and tears running down the side of his head. He didn't know if he should approach or not, if he should ask if he was fine or not. It was pretty obvious that the dude wasn't fine, though. Victor sucked at comforting people, and he honestly shouldn't even be caring enough to want to comfort Alex, but he had seen a trick on television that seemed like something doable even for him.

With a sigh at his own brain's decision, he turned on his heel and headed back out to get what he needed.

Alex saw Victor and noticed his presence but promptly chose to ignore him and his existence. He didn't care much about anything right now, all he could think about was the impending end. Why must all good things come to an end? If only he had a normal life, perhaps these would be different circumstances and he wouldn't have to leave Eddy. They could have been married with two kids and living in London where they met. That was the fantasy. Alas the past existed and so did their choices. There wasn't an escape from that, only remorse. Thus he laid there, mourning for something that could have been but never would be.

A few minutes later, a slightly out of breath Victor came back inside with a small plastic bag with only two items in it. He kicked his shoes off again, stepping inside. He brought it out to the kitchen to get some spoons and brought it all back to the living room. Then he sat down on the couch and pulled one big tub of ice cream and one small tub of ice cream out of the plastic bag - the small one for him and the big one for Alex.

"I bought ice cream for you," he said as he put it down on the table and placed the spoon on top of it. "You seemed like you needed it. I'm sorry I said some shit earlier today."

Alex stared up at him for a moment, not sure if he wanted to reply or talk for that matter. Eddy did ask him to be nicer though and it did seem like Victor was trying. He should at least give a response, "Thank you."
He cleared his throat a bit as he sat up. He went silent again as he gingerly took the tub of icecream to just feel the cold of it on him.

"Something more happen, or is it just what I said?" Victor asked, opening the lid on his own tub of ice cream. He found that seeing Alex sad made him sad too, so he wanted to fix it despite usually being terrible at it.

"Something more," Alex gave a short answer. He definitely wouldn't be crying over anything Victor said to him. Maybe get pissed and overreact but he wouldn't cry over it. He didn't usually cry, at least he tried not to. With something like this though it was hard for him to keep the emotion inside.

"I'm sorry to hear that," Victor said, surprising even himself by actually meaning it. He didn't think he cared about his house guest at all, but it seemed like he did after all. "I hope the ice cream helps a bit. It seems like a magical cure for everything, if I am to believe American television."

Alex nodded a bit, aware that it probably wouldn't help. Food could not fill the void that ate away at him. He had prepared for this moment over and over again, whether he was in the organization and Eddy was free or if he were in Japan and Eddy wasn't. It didn't make it any less easy now, he was upset over the whole fact of being separated from Eddy in any way, "If only tv were true."

"Would be a lot easier that way, yeah," Victor nodded, taking a spoonful of ice cream himself. He didn't really need it, but he wanted it anyway. "Television is stupid and fake, for the most part. In my opinion."

"Agreed," Alex guessed he should start eating the ice cream actually instead of curling around the tub to try to freeze himself. He took the spoon given and popped up the lid to eat sadly. Emotional eating numbed the pain a bit.

"I'm glad we agree," Victor mumbled, not really knowing what more to say. He kind of wanted to ask what was up, but he didn't want to push it either. Instead, he just ate ice cream in silence. It felt like they were bonding over ice cream, in a weird way.

Alex nodded a bit, not feeling it in him to make conversation at the moment. Instead he dug his spoon into the ice cream then put it into his mouth. He hadn't really looked at the flavor or really paid attention to it. He was pleasantly surprised to find it was one of his favorite flavors, "You must have gotten lucky, this is one of my favorite flavors."

"Yeah? I figured everybody likes vanilla ice cream, so I went with that," Victor shrugged a bit. "It's my favourite too, but I went for one with m&ms in it too for myself."

"Vanilla is the best, you can add so much to it or nothing at all yet it's still good," Alex rambled as he ate it. Talking about random things at least took his mind off of his sadness. He rather distract himself than deal with everything going on.

"Exactly. Couldn't have said it better myself," Victor nodded, not realizing he had gotten a small smile on his lips. "Have you tried it with raspberries before?"

"I have, it's very good," Alex nodded slightly as he wiped his face so he wasn't crying in front of Victor. He rather not, he could do it in his own free time. Right now he would try to hold it together.

"I suppose I'll bring berries as well next time," Victor said as if it would be a common thing for him to bring back ice cream for Alex. He honestly wouldn't mind doing it, though, which confused him a little. He barely bothered to bring ice cream for Brett when his fifth girlfriend in two months left him.

"Sounds lovely," Alex didn't know Victor well enough to find this strange. He could only enjoy the ice cream and not look too deep into the actions. Alex didn't need anything else to think about or stress over.

Well, Victor didn't really know if the women Brett had been with actually counted as girlfriends. Victor had zero experience with anything romance related, which was why he didn't really connect that Alex being sad might have something to do with Eddy having been there. In his head, relationships were for life because you chose to be with them. Feelings were just exaggerated anyway, and they were completely unreliable to base a relationship on, in his opinion. Personally, he had never been in love with anyone.