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Sea of Sheets (implied NSFW)

Eddy's teeth sunk into Alex's bottom lip, not hard enough to draw blood nor gentle enough to not cause a sting. Alex groaned softly, this was wrong but felt so right. Was it okay if Eddy was the one initiating it? Alex thought against it, his man was hurt. That meant he had to be mindful of it. It also meant that he needed to know what Eddy wanted and not simply assume. One should never assume what their partner wanted.

Alex made the choice to pull back, even if his body protested because his boyfriend was damn sensual. He caught his breath before meeting Eddy's wide pleading, confused eyes. All he could do was flash an assuring smile. He softened his features to try to give him mild comfort, "It's okay, baby."

"Then why'd you pull away?" Eddy's lips naturally pursed into a pout, he wanted his kisses. Not that he could demand much. Or could he?

"Because I want to talk to you, don't get me wrong baby I love kissing you. You're hurt, I don't want to misread anything and hurt you more. You're so precious to me," Alex pet Eddy's cheek gently before he cupped it. It felt rough in his hand, Eddy always felt so rough in his hand, it didn't matter where he touched.

Eddy nodded, understanding the concern. Hell, he basically ached all over. That didn't mean he didn't ache for his man. He wanted him close, closer than this. Eddy also didn't want to make Alex uncomfortable, their wants had to align in this matter, "I really love you, Alex, I want to be close to you. If it's okay I would like to uh..."

He trailed off shyly, his eyes darting away from Alex. Eddy licked his lips, it was always hard for him to ask, he could show what he wanted with his body - sometimes - but words came difficult to him.

'You'd like to what, Eddy?" Alex purred softly, he was pretty sure knew. Alex just wanted to make sure, wanted to hear Eddy say it. Not just because he wanted to make sure but because he honestly liked watching how Eddy formed the words. The younger always got a thoughtful look on his face, then his lips would twitch at the corners as they tried to shape themselves to get the correct sound. It was something he loved to watch. The motion of it all seemed so human, so lively compared to the mechanical people he was typically surrounded by.

Eddy snuck a glance back at Alex, nuzzling his cheek against the hand that held it. He wasn't sure if it was okay since Alex already expressed concerns about his injuries. Eddy thought for a moment, the worst thing that his boyfriend - it was complicated - would do would turn him down. Eddy paused for a moment, no the worst thing that his boyfriend could do was push him away without explanation leaving him to only assume rejection. That was worse than being let down easy. Eddy understood that Alex had to do what he had to do but that didn't mean he didn't think about it. That mom's wrecked him. He couldn't even fathom how bad it would be when Alex actually left for good.

Eddy cleared his throat to shake off those thoughts, "I want to be as close as humanly possible."

He started off with a murmur, not entirely sure how to elaborate more, "Like involving your penis in my ass..."

The younger assassin knew he was a grown man but asking to have sex seemed so embarrassing! Especially when his awkward brain somehow made it even more embarrassing! His face heated up at his own words, because what person engaged in sex talk like that. Sure with victims it was usually just going with the feel of it to take advantage of since intentions were clear. Doing it with someone he was in a relationship with was completely different.

Alex smiled, trying not to laugh as he lifted his hand to ruffle Eddy's hair, "You're a weirdo, but you're my weirdo."

Alex couldn't get enough of Eddy, he was too cute, "If you're really okay with it then I'd love too. But it means we're taking it easy. We don't need to put more stress on your body."

"I'm not weird, you're weird!" Ah yes, a peek comeback from Eddy. This was as good as it would get, "I really do want that and it's okay with me.... I understand we can't get rough or anything, I just want you."

Alex leaned over, pressing his chapped lips to Eddy's forehead, "Where'd you put the box that the lube was packed in, baby?"

Carefully he slipped off the bed. He had packed all of Eddy's interesting things together just to make it easy.

"Oh it's under the bed," Eddy made himself sit up so he could watch the man, smiling a bit as he got down on all fours, leaning under the bed to grab the hidden box. Eddy surely enjoyed the view. Of course he was looking respectfully, one had to take time to appreciate the form of their significant other. Soon Alex pulled the box out from under the fancy bed.

He sat back on his heels as he took the lid off, peering in on the small collection of toys. Luckily Brett didn't accidentally open this one to find the letter. Oh that would probably be embarrassing for both parties. Alex chuckled to himself as he pulled out a half empty bottle of lube, "Keeping it hidden I see."

"Well I can't leave it out in the open for people to see or get confused about it and open it. That would be hella awkward depending on who it was. If it was anyone who worked here that would be awful. Like damn," Eddy shook his head at the thought, finding it to be an unpleasant one.

Alex smiled up at him before pushing the box back under before standing up, "Fair, but your sexuality is nothing to be ashamed of. Along with it not being anyone else's business."

No one had the right to judge someone on that. Especially since it wasn't their body, it was Eddy's and Eddy had the right to reclaim it.

Eddy nodded as he listened, it felt easier said than done. It was hard for him at least. Not knowing what to say he said, "I love you," instead.

"I love you too, Eddy." Alex climbed back on the bed, pressing his back to the headboard then patting his lap, "C'mere baby."

Without hesitation Eddy sat himself in the man's lap, sitting so they were face to face, "Thank you."

Alex bumped their foreheads together whilst a hand slid under Eddy's shirt to feel his back. It felt like bark under his hand, scars forming a tree, a tree whose seed was planted by him...

"Why are you thanking me, Eddy baby."

"For still wanting me even if I'm this way," Eddy vaguely gestured to himself. Tears pressed at his eyes, willing to make an escape.

"No matter what form you take, I will always want you. I'll always love you. No matter what, okay," Alex pressed a gentle kiss to his cheek as a tea slipped out. Alex didn't know what happened in that torture room but he could understand something was weighing heavily on his shoulders. More tears kept spilling in thick globs, releasing the pain he had been holding in. The pain he had been scared of. Eddy was scared of the past, he was scared of the what ifs and he was scared that it was all his fault. Abandoning Brett, falling for Jeremy, being forced by the organization head, Eddy feared that it was his fault. To an extent he believed it was.

"I got you, I'm right here," Alex spoke quietly with assurance, his presence was there to soothe all those tormenting thoughts.