Never Let You Go

Anjaan Toh Nahin

Sameer waited for her to come back but she didn't return to him... after lunch Naina straight went to her room and went out in balcony, sitting on swing... feeling guilty and embarrassed on her unintentional impulsive act of sleeping closely with him... even Sameer's calm response on seeing her in his arms making her confused more...

Her heart and brain were working strangely, troubled with so many weird thoughts, for which she doesn't have any answers... one side of her heart longing for his closeness, strange that how much she was comfortable in his arms, sleeping so peacefully but other side the thought of parting from him soon pierced her heart... with Sameer's closeness she starts dreaming about their future together, but how can this be possible in this life... answer seems no... hurting her more...

In Palakon Mein Qaid Kuchh Sapne Hai,

Kuchh Baigane Hai Kuchh Apne Hai,

Na Jaane Kaisi Koshish Hai In Khyaalon Mein,

Kuchh Log Kyun Dur Hokar Bhi Kitne Apne Hai....

Soon she slept there only feeling still extremely tired... she was awaked from last two nights and badly needed rest...

Pandit joined Sameer and they gets busy in discussing office matters... but as per her wish or command, he didn't even touch his laptop to do any office work, for which gets lots of teasing from his friend, "sahi hai bhai... mein kehta toh ghoor ke dekhta aur chup kara deta... par biwi ki baat majaal hai taal de... abhi se poora joru ka gulaam ban gaya hai..."

For next few hours, he waited for her but there was no sign of her around making him restless... Pandit left outside on context of some work when Sameer decided to go and check for her.... he entered their room but finds it all empty... he looked her everywhere and lastly found her sleeping outside in balcony... coming out slowly without making any noise to disturb her, he smiled seeing her sleeping peacefully clutching a soft cushion in her hand... like she was holding him earlier...

Slightly cool breeze blew her hair gently, making her look like an angel who had descended into the mortal world... she looked so pure and beautiful... he stares her quietly as doesn't want to disturb her sleep....

Kya Kahun Teri Taarif E Surat Mein Yaar,

Alfaaz Kam Pad Rahe Hai, Teri Masumiyat Dekh kar...

"kitni thak gayi hai par chehre par ek alag si hi chamak hai... kal kitni koshish kari ki isey apne paas na aane dun par nahin maani... sach kahun toh dil mera bhi nahin maan raha tha par majboor tha... ise saath se pehli baar ehsaas hua ki koi hai jise mere hone ya na hone se farq padta hai... kisi ne raat bhar jaag kar mujhe chen ki neend di hai... par kya mein kabhi iske liye yeh sab kar paaunga... hamesha dil dukhaya hai maine aur na chhate huye bhi rula hi deta hun... yeh kabhi kuchh kehti kyun nahin... ladati kyun nahin mujhse... ek ajeeb si khamoshi hai iski aankhon mein jaise isey zindagi se koi ummid hi na ho...

Chaahe jitna bhi chhupaye, iski aankhon mein iska dard dikhta hai... par mein kabhi nahin pad pata... aaj kyun pareshaan thi, kyun royi kuchh nahin samajh aaya... kaise jaanu ki iske dil mein kya hai, kya sochti hai... kya chaahati hai... isey kya pasand hai, kya baat isey khushi deti hai... pata nahin kaise bina kahe yeh mere man ki har baat samajh jaati hai par mein nahin... kaisa anjaana sa, ankaha sa rishta bantaa jaa raha hai hamare beech... kabhi lagta hai ki sab kuchh ek pal mein sulajh gaya ho aur kabhi agle hi pal mein sab pehle se jyaada ulajh jaata hai... par itna pata hai ki ab tumse dur rehna mere liye na mumkin hai..."

Uljha Rahin Hai Mujhko, Yahi Kash-ma-kash Aajkal,

Tu Aa Basi Hai Mujh Mein,