Never Let You Go

Ankahe Zazbaat

Sameer who was engrossed in all his own miseries stunned hearing her painful voice... they both were in pain, but he never realizes how much she is enduring in herself... there is no one beside her with whom she can share her pain, her thoughts... no one is there from whom she can expect anything... she is all alone facing all the hardship but still never lose hope...

Seeing him again lost in his thoughts, Naina reprimand herself thinking, "paagal hi hoon mein, kuchh bhi bol deti hoon... inka dard kam karna chahti thi aur apane dukhde le kar baith gayi... apani udaas baaton se toh maine inhein aur dukh pahuncha diya..."

Composing herself she diverts the topic, "vaise aap logon ne itni der kyun lagayi mall aane mein... pata hai kitna mushkil tha Preeti se jhuth bolna... aap toh mujhse pehle aane wale the na... Pandit bach gaya varna apni hi proposal date par late aane ke chakkar mein aaj Preeti bohot maarti usko..."

Sameer astounded seeing her sudden change of mood... few moments before she was in deep pain and now, she is laughing... just to make him feel good she again trying to suppress her own pains...

Naina jerked him keeping her hand on him asking, "aaj mujhe lagta hai aapne maun vrat dhaaran kar rakha hai... mein kab se bole ja rahi hoon aur aap kuchh bol hi nahin rahe... mein kahin aapko pareshaan toh nahin kar rahi na... if that's so, I am sorry..." she said standing to go back inside to not to disturb him any more... maybe she is still not so close to him to let him open his heart in front of her...

Sameer gaining his sense quickly hold her hand making her sit back, "bilkul nahin... tumhari baatein mujhe kabhi pareshaan nahin karti... tum jab chaaho mujhse kabhi bhi, kuchh bhi kah sakti ho... promise mein bura nahin maanunga... aur phir tumse nahin kahunga toh aur kis se apne dil ki baat kahunga..."

She smiled getting relived seeing him talking back normally... handing him his coffee she sits back in front of him... taking a sip he asked, "vaise yeh raat mein yun khule aasman ke neech baith kar, haath mein coffee aur saath mein koi baat karne wala... I really liked this... I wish hum roj yun time spent kar sake... it's so much relaxing after a hectic and stressed day... isn't it..."

She said excitedly, "of course... vaise bhi kehte hai na ki hum kitne bhi busy rahe par apne liye thoda waqt jaroor nikalna chahiye... kabhi kabhi khud se bhi baatein karni chahiye... shayad jo dil mein hai aur kisi se nahin kah pa rahe ho usey khud se hi kah dene se dil ka bojh kam lagne lagta hai..."

Sameer said looking straight into her eyes, "par agar koi saath ho jo dil se aapki baatein sune toh akele se kyun baat karna... I mean isn't it better to share your thoughts with someone who understand you better than yourself... jaise tum  samajh jaati ho hamesha... mere ankahe zazbaat..." he took a deep sigh thinking when will she understand his love without saying?

Naina looked him surprisingly... she never imagining him to observe her actions so keenly... she always tried her best to not make him uncomfortable by any of her action but somehow, he always understood her intentions... will he understood her love also without saying?

मैं अल्फाज़ हूँ तेरी हर बात समझता हूँ​,

मैं एहसास हूँ तेरे जज़्बात समझता हूँ​,

कब पूछा मैंने ​कि ​क्यूँ दूर हो मुझसे​,

मैं दिल रखता हूँ तेरे हालात समझता हूँ​।

Sameer seeing her quite asked further, "vaise tum aaj achanak yun dinner se kyun aa gayi... tumne theek se khaana bhi nahin khaaya, na hi enjoy kiya theek se... mujhe laga tum khush thi apne doston ki khushi mein aur Preeti ke saath toh tum hamesha bohot enjoy karti ho..."