mha sick fics (angst)

a weight off his shoulders (iideku)

Tw: suicide attempt, self harm, overdose.

Midoriya tries to attempt suicide by overdose, but when he doesn't show for dinner, Iida goes to check on him.

Caretaker: Iida
Sick: deku

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Izuku had finally done it. He'd taken then whole bottle. The whole bottle. The whole bottle and the room was spinning. He felt sick. His head was pounding. His legs felt wobbly, he didn't even know if he could stand. The funny thing is he knew no one cared, that didn't keep him from being a little nervous. He knew he was dying, but that was the point. This was a suicide attempt.

No one cared. Not his parents. Not his classmates. He felt useless. He hated himself. He needed a new start. One where it didn't feel like he had a pile of a bajillion problems he had to solve. A huge list of things he had to do all by himself. A weight on his shoulders that he needed help carrying so badly, and now he was being crushed by it.

He was in his bathroom. He felt out of his own body. Everything felt wrong. He vomited, seeing half digested pills in the gooey liquid. He was crying. It hurt. It hurt so badly, he wanted it to stop. He sobbed loudly. He could barely hold himself up anymore, he was gripping the toilet seat to hold himself upright.

The moment he passed out, that was it.

But that's when his bathroom door slammed open, he saw Iida. His eyes went slightly wide. He could see the other boy looked worried.

Izuku felt himself let out another sob. Iida knelt down next to him as the boy vomited again. He went to rub the others back, finding he was incredibly sweaty.

Iida could tell something was off. Really off. He looked around the bathroom for some clue as to what was causing this, not expecting to find an answer when he saw the empty pill bottle.

"Midoriya did you take these?" Iida asked. Izuku sobbed again as he nodded, "help."

"On purpose? All of them?" Iida asked, a tear slipping down his cheek. Izuku sobbed as he nodded, "I'm sorry." He kept apologizing, "I'm sorry."

Iida couldn't keep himself from crying as he scooped Midoriya into his arms. He was weak, going limp. He grabbed the empty bottle, feeling a bit sick at the thought.

His best friend had just tried to kill himself. He felt guilty. He felt horrible. How could he not have noticed he was feeling this way? Why didn't he help? Why didn't he notice? He felt at fault.

He ran as fast as he could to recovery girl, nearly sobbing himself by the time they got there. He knew he needed to be strong for Izuku but he felt so close to falling apart. How did he let this happen? How did he not notice what he was going through sooner? Why did he let him go through it alone?

He burst into Recovery Girls office, stuttering out information as Izuku lay barely conscious in his arms.

Recovery Girl got to work immediately, giving him activated charcoal and a trash can. Iida helped the weak boy take the treatment and heald his hair back as he vomited the bottle of pills up a couple minutes later.

He vomited a few more times, becoming more aware each time as his overdose was essentially fixed. Iida sat next to him, comforting him the whole time.

There got to a point when Izuku finally spoke something. And the only thing he could manage was another, "I'm sorry."

Iida sat next to him, "I just- why?" He was speechless, his words taken by worry, "Midoriya I didn't know you felt this way and I'm sorry I didn't help more." Iida said stiffly. Izuku nodded, stifling a sob.

He couldn't keep it in anymore when Iida pulled him into a grand hug, filled with emotion that 1A had never seen from him before. And boy did he sob. He cried and cried.

And man did it feel good. Good as hell.

To finally share the weight, to finally have someone know. Maybe not understand, but a shoulder to lean on when things get tough. Someone to help him not feel so alone. His best friend. The person he loved dearly, maybe as more than a friend.

And a couple days later Izuku was feeling truly happy. Well, happier. things weren't perfect, but he was feeling better. More in control. He had a partner to conquer things with, his best friend and...

The guy he had just shared his first kiss with.

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Dude why did this turn out so cute in my opinion, like the end??? AHHH I love them sm. Anyways vote ☝️