mha sick fics (angst)

I need you. (bkdk)

(MHA ending + end of war arc major spoilers)

TW: panic attacks, sh?, PTSD
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Three years had passed since the end of the war.

Three years has passed since Bakugo started waking up with horrifying night terrors.

A lot of class 1-A had PTSD after everything that happened. After seeing people die. Nights at the dorms were filled with endless waking up in tears or in fits of yelling. There were so many sleepovers because no one could handle the fear of being alone anymore.

Bakugo and Izuku had it bad though. Maybe the worst out of everyone.

I mean, Bakugo had fucking died and faced AFO head on. And Izuku? The shit Izuku went through was beyond.

Being unable to save the vulnerable kid still alive inside the monster Shigaraki had become. Completely losing his arms for three minutes after trying to save the man. Ultimately having to resolve to murder to end the war. Seeing his best friend die. Seeing heroes die. Being the front line in the war of the century. Having to be the hero that saved the entire world as a 16 year old.

There was blood on the forefront of their minds all the time.

Bakugo and Izuku got really close because of those nightmares. Mostly because of the times Bakugo could be found hyperventilating in the locker rooms, clutching his chest with a dangerously sweaty hand, his mind racing and racing with memories he wished he could forget. Izuku was always there for him then because he wasn't brave enough to let anyone else see him so vulnerable yet.

Izuku had his fair share of moments too, but the depression hit him worse than the anxiety aspect of PTSD did. Once the embers died out, he felt so far behind. It was hard to get out of bed before his mental health really spiraled, but he fell into a complete rot after the initial end of the war and rehabilitation efforts died down.

His dorm was a disaster. He had moldy plates of food sitting on a desk full of late homework assignments. How was he supposed to just keep going after all this? The adrenaline had worn off and he felt unable to go on.

No one knew how bad things had gotten until he woke up one night from such a bad nightmare he'd woken up half his floor with his screaming and everyone came rushing to help. He was inconsolable that night and everything was revealed. His self harm, his mental state, the chaos he'd been living in, how horrible everything had gotten for him.

They had to carry him to the nurse. He was bleeding heavily from his wrists and ankles.

It was the worst night of his life, but in a way also the best because that was the first night he got the chance to be close with Bakugo.

Katsuki was the one to scoop him out of the nightmare he was drowning him and bring him into the safety of the hallway. The one to open the door (literally and figuratively) to how much more help Izuku needed than he was letting on. Everyone was struggling, but no one realized how horrible things had gotten for the young hero.

Katsuki stuck with him through his cuts getting healed, through his transition back from the psych ward he had to spend a week at, through everything.

And then one night the suspense of their unlabeled cuddling and romantic tension gave way because they kissed and melted into each other and agreed to (finally) date.

They'd been together ever since.

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Neither boy liked to sleep alone, so most of the time they shared a bed and cuddled together (nothing more) to feel safe sleeping.