Dear Diary | Chacha

The act

~Chapter 31~
THE ACT

⚠️TW: Very Graphic⚠️
(For the Second half of the Chapter)

Charlis POV:
Once I thanked Chase and his family for everything they've done for me I left to walk back to my house. I started to prepare myself for what's next to come.

These past few days have been a vacation from my reality and I loved it. The worse part about vacations is they end, and you know that feeling when you get back home from a vacation? Well that's what I'm feeling now. Horrible. My vacation has ended.

Once I arrived back at my house and I walked inside and no one was there.

Will I be able to get away with going straight to my room and never coming out?

Miss Damelio: "Charli-grace! Is that you"

Unfortunately.

Miss Damelio: "get over here!"

I rolled my eyes and walked over and I saw the other person standing in the room. Bill. I wanted to scream and run away.

But i didn't. I couldn't.

Bill: "Charli! There you are! We've been worried sick"

No. He isn't doing this. He isn't gonna pretend like we are friends. Like nothings changed.

Sick bastard.

Miss Damelio: "Charli. I told bill you had something to say to him"

I have nothing to say to him. Absolutely nothing.

Charli: "what?"
I said with attitude

Miss Damelio: "Charli be polite!"

I just wanna scream and I don't wanna stop until my vocal cords are broken and I physically cannot scream any longer.

Miss Damelio: "I told him you wanted to apologize, right?"

Apologize?! Are you kidding me?! I will not apologize! He should apologize to me and even that would never make up for what he did. I will never apologize to him for what he did?? I have nightmares because of what he did?! I'm scared to let anyone touch me because of what he did?? He scard me for life and they expect me to apologize??

Bill: "Charli you're like a daughter to me, I would never hurt you"

I've never wanted to kill someone
more in my life. Like ever. I wanna grab a knife and slit his throat open.

Charli: "I hate you. I hate you so much I can't even explain it with words"

He raised his eye brows

Miss Damelio: "Charli-Grace?! Go to your room right now! And while your at it, why don't you take those horrible clothes off of you too!"

I turned around and walked upstairs to my room. I closed the door behind me.

I can't believe I'm back here, again. I failed myself, I promised I'd never come back

I heard loud foot steps coming up stairs and I braced myself

My mom slammed my door open

What is she gonna do now.

Miss Damelio: "when I told you to be nice, I meant it! That's what you do?! Stop this! Stop this game! You got your attention now stop?!"

I shook my head

Charli: "I'm not looking for attention. Why can't you believe me??"

I left my own house because of this?! Why would I do that so randomly for attention.

Miss Damelio: "clean the house. I want this entire place spick span. Make
Up for the days you spent gone."

Well I'd rather do that then apologize to Bill.

The rest of the day I spent cleaning the house and it was an absolute mess without me. Can she not do anything on her own? It's like I'm a cleaning lady. This place is the dirtiest it's ever been only because I've been gone for a week.

After I finished cleaning it was already late And they had dinner without me so had to just go to bed without eating anything.

I got in my bed and tried to fall asleep
I tried again and again but I didn't feel safe even closing my eyes in a house with bill in it.

After hours of trying to fall asleep
I went downstairs to get a glass of water hoping nobody was down there. Luckily for me nobody was.

I grabbed a cup and then grabbed the brita, I filled up my glass but I spotted a glimpse of the wine cabinet.

I poured my water into the sink and opened the wine cabinet.

I need this right now. I need this more than anyone.

I opened a bottle of wine and poured it into my cup.
The next thing I know the bottle is almost empty.

I brung it up stairs and hid it in my closet.
I laid down in my bed feeling a little better then before

I closed my eyes as I fell asleep

I woke up and it was still dark out.
My heart dropped when I felt someone on top of me
My breathing quickened and my heart started racing

The lights didn't have to be on for me to figure out who it was.

I was flipped around so my back was facing him

Charli: "please stop it"
I cried

He pressed his hands against me so I couldn't move or resist

No no no no.

He pulled my shorts down and did the same to my underwear

Charli: "don't do this to me please"
I said as tears rolled down my face

He got on top of me and placed both his hands over my mouth so I couldn't talk

Bill: "shhh, it's alright. Don't cry"

The next thing I know I felt him thrusting inside the back of me as his hands muffled my screams

It hurts it hurts it hurts so badly.

I cried so hard I couldn't breath and I knew there was not one person in this house that could help me so I didn't even bother trying to scream for help

The only thing I could think of was how much I wanted to die at that very moment.

Charli: "i- it hurts pl- please stop"
I tried to say but his hands were pressed too deeply into my mouth that he could barley hear me

Charli: "it hurts"
I cried again only making him push harder into me

Bill: "shhhh"
He said as he continued

I stopped resisting and I laid there almost completely unconscious.
The pain just kept going and every time he thrusted back into me it was like a piece of me was taken away and by the end all that was left was my lifeless body

I woke up panting and my heart racing-
It was a dream Charli. Calm down. It was just a dream. A nightmare. the worst one yet

A/n
Alright so by the time this chapter is published, Charli should be back in LA. So if chase and her still haven't hung out even when she's back in LA... I won't know what to think.

Wow, how is it already chapter 31 😦 feels like I started writing yesterday but it's been a month

Word count - 1160