Dear Diary | Chacha

She looks just like a dream

~Chapter 17~
       SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE A DREAM

Chases POV:
Dear diary,
I cannot even breath right now?! You don't know how nervous I am?! I think I'm doing a good job at hiding it. I'm shaking. So much is happening in 1 night?? First she calls me. ME. Out of everyone. Then she wants to stay at my house?! I hope she moves in. She's sleeping in my bed right now. MY BED. I am never washing my sheets. Ever. I can't believe this is happening, Charli. Charli damelio, is sleeping at my house. Inside my bed. She's already met my parents too, it's like we are in a real relationship. I really do hope she's okay though, someone did something to her. Maybe it was the same person who gave her that cut. I mean If it wasn't Justin who was it? Also why was she kicked out of her house? And why won't any of her friends let her stay with them? Weird.

I put my diary back into my drawer and locked it shut.

Before she came I shoved all my drawings of hers into this drawer. That would ruin everything if she saw those. It would look super creepy- well it kinda is.

I looked at her fast asleep on the bed still fully in her clothes and shoes

She must be really tired

I walked up to her and unstrapped the straps on her heels. I pulled them off of her feet and put them on the ground. I grabbed the blanket and pulled it over her body. I stroked her hair out of her face and smiled down at her

She is so beautiful.

I blushed

I love you Charli. Please marry me.

I turned the lights off and let her sleep

I couldn't help but to think about my friendship with Justin... he was my best friend... and even though he's done so many bad things to Charli and to everyone, I keep trying to convince myself to forgive him...

I don't know why. I really don't. But maybe I'm the bad one? I guess he had all right to react how he did, im a traitor. I told him I loved his girlfriend, the girl the he apparently loves. I guess that would be kinda shocking if he didn't know already.

Maybe I should text him, maybe he's ready to apologize for trying to cheat on Charli.

I sat down on the bed beside Charli

I picked up my phone and pressed Justin

I texted

"I'm sorry for being in love with your girlfriend, but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm sorry. I've never tried anything on her, I've never hit on her or flirted with her. I'm a good friend."

I don't know why I'm apologizing, it's not like I can't help it? I was born this way you know. Plus, he always knew I had a thing for her but he went and dated her anyway. He knew what he got into.

He started typing and then sent a message

"It's not that you're in love with her it's that you don't know the line between her and me. If you're friends with me you are my friend and my friend only, when you're with me you can't be in love with Charli because then she clouds your judgment. When I flirt with another girl your immediate answer shouldn't be "Justin what about Charli?" It should be "yeah Justin, get it!" You can't be my friend and be in love with her."

Even if I didn't have feelings for Charli I wouldn't let him cheat on her?? I just wanna do the right thing. If he is so unhappy with his relationship that he has to cheat, then he's gotta tell her that.

"Im coming over"
He texted-

No no no no?! He can't come over?! Charlis over- this looks so bad- oh my god-