Dear Diary | Chacha

You love me

                     ~Chapter 28~
                  YOU LOVE ME

Charlis POV:
I shouldn't have said that. I should not have said that?! That was so mean?! God dammit! I sorta just exploded. And I do that sometimes when I'm fed up and I can't take it anymore, everything that's on my mind just comes out?

Was I lying when I said that? No... well I don't know and that's sorta the point?
I don't know if I love Justin and I don't know if he loves me because I've never loved anyone and I've never been loved.
Non Romantically or romantically. I've never been loved by anyone...

Chase: "I should go-"

Oh- he's still here- right-
I turned around

Charli: "just stay. I won't be long"

Justin looked at me like I was crazy

Justin: "what do you mean you don't know if you love me?!"

He can't be mad?? I just don't know!

Charli: "listen Justin, don't take it personally. I Just don't know, and I know I said it awhile ago but that was the heat of the moment."

I could say I love anyone during the heat of the moment, depends what's happening.

Justin: "so you don't..."
Charli: "no! I'm not saying that. I'm saying I don't know. You know I don't know. I don't know what it feels like? What does love feel like?"

He shrugged

Justin: "feels good I guess, and this. What we have. Feels good"

I don't think that's the definition of love.

Charli: "don't be mad Justin... I'm sorry... I just don't know... I have nothing to compare it too, you've loved people in your life, you know what it feels like. I don't"

Im not sorry for what I said, I'm sorry that he's hurt by what I said.

Chase: "you know when you know. "

I turned around and looked at Chase leaning on the doorframe

Charli: "huh?"

He looked up at me

Chase: "when you fall in love, you'll know it. You'll feel things that you've never felt for anyone ever. And you'll care so deeply for that person that you'd be willing to die for them"

Oh...

Justin: "don't look at him for love advice?! He's never had a girlfriend In his life?!

Seems more wise than Justin. He just said "it feels good"
I like Chases definition more.
Sounds more... romantic?

Is it because he's in love? Is that why he has a better definition than Justin...

Chase: "you know how lucky you are? To have someone be there for you no matter what? So lucky. So be there for her why don't you? What I'm wondering is why she wounded up staying at my house, instead of her own boyfriends house"

...

Justin: "it wasn't me, it was my dad okay?"

So??

Charli: "you could've said someting! You could have given him a lesson? But you didn't! And you acted like you didn't care but I did, I cared so much. And all I've been able to think about is what your dad said?! And I wonder to myself, if I wore something different that day would it of still happened."

He grabbed my arms and looked at me in the eyes
I wanted to yank myself off him but I couldn't bring myself to do it

Justin: "you love me! You love me Charli!"
He yelled