Dear Diary | Chacha

This is love

                     ~Chapter 43~
This is love

Chases POV:
We're moving for me?! Are you kidding me?? I don't have a problem? I'm fine! I'm okay?! They're acting like I have a mental disease?  We are leaving our home so I can get away from Charli?? Really! How stupid is that? I don't need therapy?? What would I talk about? If they think I need therapy to fall out of love with her that isn't happening, no therapy can do that. Nothing can. She could kill me and I'd still be in love with her.

This is crazy. We're moving states because they don't want me in the same state as Charli. Wow.

Chase: "okay so your saying the whole family is moving because of me?"

My dad nodded and my mom shook her head

Chase: "you guys clearly don't understand what I have with Charli. Maybe I'm not the one who doesn't understand love, maybe you are."

So what I'm 17? She is just a number and it doesn't determine anything. Love is love.

Chase: "I can't deal with this! You guys are ruining my life! My whole life is here and your taking it away!"

Never in my life have my parents been so selfish. He purposely looked for a job for us to move away and I keep saying I'm not going but seriously? What choice do I have!?

Mister Hudson: "Chase we are gonna help you. You're life will be better soon."

I shook my head

They're treating me like I'm crazy?? I'm not crazy!

Chase: "my life is great right now, I don't have a problem?! Im fine? And im not a stalker?!"

They all looked at me like I was crazy

Chase: "I thought you guys were supporting me this whole time. I guess you were just judging me."

I stood up and walked upstairs

I'm not usually this rude to my parents but I'm mad right now. This whole time they've been pretending to support me when I'm reality they think I'm crazy.

Charlis POV:
While I was forced to clean for hours it gave me time to think about what I was gonna do about Justin. I re-lived the moment in my head time a thousand times and thought about every single time we got into a fight. I thought about every thing he did in our relationship and everything I did. Is it worth it? Is this relationship worth saving?

I still haven't come to a conclusion.

Maybe he really did slap me on accident? What if she was moving his hand and it just happened to whip across my face? That wouldn't be bad? It would be a mistake, a slip up. Everyone makes mistakes it's how we learn so maybe next time he won't accidentally whip his hand across my face

Who am I kidding.
I need to stop making excuses for him because what he did was wrong. I want a relationship where I wouldn't have to make this decision.

But what If I never get that? What if all guys are like this and what If this is what love really is? I've never witnessed love or how it's supposed to look like so what If this is it? Is this what real life love is? I think this is it...

This is love Charli and you just gotta take it.

I got a text message and I looked down at my phone.

Justin.

I opened his text

Justin: "can we talk?"

What do I answer to that? I need time to think about this. I think I already have my decision but i don't want him to get in my head. I wanna stay with him.

Charli: "I can't make any decisions right now."
I replied

Justin: "Please Baby, this is really important. I really need to talk to you about it"
He texted

What? What could it be? Did something happen? What could be so important that he needs to tell me.

Charli: "fine. When"
I responded

I just wanna know what's up?

Justin: "right now. I'm really excited about this."

Oh? So it's good? What is it?

Charli: "okay? Sure?"

This is weird. What is going on.

Justin: "meet me at the park close to school"

I don't really want to go to the park? It's getting kinda late.

Charli: "it's kinda dark out?"

I'm gonna have to bike there and it's kinda far. Why am I the one who has to go there? Why can't he come here.

Justin: "please Charli."

Okay okay. Il go.

Charli: "yeah fine."

I put my phone back in my pocket

Now I gotta sneak out.
My parents are gonna kill me for this. This better be worth it.

I walked outside and grabbed my bike out of the garage.
I got on to my bike and started biking wondering why he would need to talk to me right now

After a long bike ride to the park I arrived and I saw Justin sitting on a bench

I biked to him and got off my bike

Justin: "I made you come here because I wanted to ask you something"

I sat down on the bench and I got a little worried

Is he gonna ask me to marry him? Because it seems like it- and hate to say it but that wouldn't end well for him-

Justin: "first off Im really sorry for what I did to you. I got mad and I put it out on you and i promise to never to it again"

...

Charli: "thanks... I just really don't want to talk about this right now... im still making a decision and I don't need any extra pressure on me right now"

He grabbed my hands

Justin: "okay... I just need to say this to you right now... I can't wait another second..."

Jeez what is it? What could be possibly wanna say to me?

Justin: "I wanna..."

He took a deep breath

Justin: "I wanna get you pregnant... "

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