Dear Diary | Chacha

No Hope For Us

                     ~Chapter 80~
NO HOPE FOR US

Charlis POV:
I woke up with Chases arms around my stomach and his head resting on mine.

It felt nice.

Wait a second.

Chase?? How the hell did I get here?! Was I kidnapped and placed in his bed-
He took me from my house didn't he?? He's crazy!

Oh. The vodka. That's how I got here.

He's gonna hate me. Now he knows I drank again.

Uhh! Why am I here! I wanna leave, I can't look at his face.
I won't.

If I leave before he wakes up then maybe he'll forget I was ever here.

Did we do anything?

No. One thing I know about Chase is he wouldn't do anything to with me while Im drunk.

I wanna leave but I also don't... I just wanna stay here forever. I wish I could freeze time so I could stay in this moment forever. I don't want him to wake up because I don't want to talk to him.

I turned around slowly so I was facing him but not his face. I couldn't bare to look at him. So I ended up starring directly at his chest

My eyes travelled down to his abdomen.

Why does he have to be so hot.

I put my fingers on his abs and slowly traced them down along the lines in his stomach

Chase: "what are you doing?"

Curse you Chases abs!

Charli: "nothing. Nothing. I was just-"
I looked up at him and saw all the tear stains on his face-

What happened??
Did I kill someone?? Why was he crying?

Charli: "are you okay?"
Chase: "what do you mean?"

What do I mean? Has he seen his face?

Charli: "why were you crying?"
Chase: "oh"

He broke eye contact with me

Chase: "because I don't wanna leave you all alone here... I couldn't bare the thought..."

Why does he always say the perfect thing. I hate it.

Charli: "listen, I'll be okay. I'll figure it out. You don't have to worry about me."

I won't be okay. I hate him for leaving I hate him so much but I know he's just as hurt as I am... I need to blame someone for this...

He wrapped his arms around me tighter

Chase: "please stay with me for the last week... I'm sorry for proposing"
He cried into my shoulder

Chase: "I- I just wanted to stay with you... I didn't mean to scare you off... I'm sorry... im so sorry"

I rubbed my hand on his hair and stayed silent for a moment thinking what to say

Charli: "baby it's okay. You didn't scare me away... that's not why I needed a break... I needed a break because you were just making everything hurt more because you knew I couldn't say yes to that... and it made me feel guilty... it made me feel like I was the one that was keeping us apart..."